It's almost the end of the year 2011

Sometimes you grieve.. Alot of people grieve over their misfortune. I grieve over what I have. I used to be a normal kid with an upperhand in life. Now i no longer live like one. Because I'm on the upperhand. I have a awesome father that creates wealth. All the wealth for his loved ones, his 3 sons. He wants to best out of all his kids, and all of his kids are doing well. So am I. I'm being enrolled in med school, and I'm doing really well for now.. We have a handful of investments that many dream about. I'm not talking about ridiculous extravagant, but very comfortable living. Traveling down to KL and Penang, i realised how fortunate I am. I have a great family with great sis-in-laws and great brothers. I have a bright future and no financial problem. I have great friends that I enjoy my accompany.

BUT. I'm stuck between my love life and studies. In order to complete my studies, I will have to stay in US for another 7 years. WHich girl in life will want to wait for 7 years?. my parents are in their 60s. What if something happens along the way? A medical path is such a long way... So what even if i become successful one day? The ones that i loved are no longer around.. Just to see my loved one twice a year, i count the number of days that we part, the number of days that we get to see each other. I feel so sad, yet some of my friends are envious of my life. All i want is someone that loves me back. I just want to be a normal person. I just want to help some of the misfortunates. There's so much responsibilities to bear now. I don't want to lose my gf, my family. I do not know what to do. I'm stuck. it took me 5 years before i could continue with my studies.. a time too much to waste.. a time spent that one day i may regret.. and no one will understand except myself

I doesn't pay to be nice at all.

What a nice birthday i had - irony
I get attitude from someone that i'm trying to love.
I blew 2k on someone on my birthday and that's the shit i got.

Hi Christmas - Spent time with the trio to get shit from someone that I love.

I think i'm totally out of Singapore. Fucked this. August Here I come.

Recollection

Money Blundering- I love the way I earned 30k in 1 month and then lost 20k away. cool as it may sound. How much more does someone need? I'm not my dad who earns 60x more $ than i do last year. This year he will earn at least 90-100 x more than me. Nevertheless, a diamond ring, Gucci big and small bag was all there. i spent 3k on those + other misc stuff. That's the screwed up part.

People that walk pass your workstation loves to stare at what you're doing. I've been there for the last few months since i moved to a different lab, but somehow rather ppl just don't know that you exist. They will stare at you whenever they pass by as if you're an alien.

Fri was celebration of my birthday with CS and friends. Was glad to Ace came, but i ended up being sent into Cab by Joe. Nice Pal. Vomitted 3 times @ zouk's Toilet.

Sat was awesome again and ended up at Sean's place. Valley Road off old tampines road. Nice house but Chris sent me home afterthat coz i had to vomit.

Seriously, it's been almost another year and i just feel that my life is still in the stagnant phrase. The only thing i've accomplished is the soon publication of my work in PNAS.

Finally Another Entry after Gazillion years

Just a short entry. Had been really busy and tired with life.. It's such a squeeze. Work is killing me off as well as other worries. Anyways, We've submitted a paper to Science Brevia.. Swee super impact paper as a co-author on Monosiga evolutionary analysis. yeah ? know what that is? beat that.

Saw Chee Heang in Zouk last night.. 3 years after army life and he's working as an accountant and he mentioned that tourmaline is his senior in the same company. haha

Bleah. watched The ghost movie by Rainie Yang(with Noel and Michelle @ west Mall Only 2 movies in this theatre for the past 10 yrs)- totally absurd movie that is just using it's 3D effect as a selling pot.

Everyone around me in my life seems to be insecure with $- Kelvin, Ace. I don't know why.. but what's with the money issues..

My maid is gone for 2 weeks, which means that my mummy is going to suffer for a while, for i'm a unfilial son.

Revived My Blog

I realised that I couldn't upload my old blog that i designed for 3 weeks. So I shall spend some time repairing my blog. Afterall, having a blog reminds me about the things, the moments that i have and i think it's definitely worth to update it regularly- at some point of time, you'll be able to look back and know what's happening. Moreover, it's essential to reflect on yourself on a weekly basis. So much things happened since like 8 months ago but i havent' had a story to tell anyone. The trip with Aaron to JB is definitely the most exciting incident of my life. I could have killed myself that night but well i was saved by an angel. Cool*. I'll always remember her face.