truthhurts

It's almost the end of the year 2011

2011-12-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you grieve.. Alot of people grieve over their misfortune. I grieve over what I have. I used to be a normal kid with an upperhand in life. Now i no longer live like one. Because I'm on the upperhand. I have a awesome father that creates wealth. All the wealth for his loved ones, his 3 sons. He wants to best out of all his kids, and all of his kids are doing well. So am I. I'm being enrolled in med school, and I'm doing really well for now.. We have a handful of investments that many dream about. I'm not talking about ridiculous extravagant, but very comfortable living. Traveling down to KL and Penang, i realised how fortunate I am. I have a great family with great sis-in-laws and great brothers. I have a bright future and no financial problem. I have great friends that I enjoy my accompany.

BUT. I'm stuck between my love life and studies. In order to complete my studies, I will have to stay in US for another 7 years. WHich girl in life will want to wait for 7 years?. my parents are in their 60s. What if something happens along the way? A medical path is such a long way... So what even if i become successful one day? The ones that i loved are no longer around.. Just to see my loved one twice a year, i count the number of days that we part, the number of days that we get to see each other. I feel so sad, yet some of my friends are envious of my life. All i want is someone that loves me back. I just want to be a normal person. I just want to help some of the misfortunates. There's so much responsibilities to bear now. I don't want to lose my gf, my family. I do not know what to do. I'm stuck. it took me 5 years before i could continue with my studies.. a time too much to waste.. a time spent that one day i may regret.. and no one will understand except myself

I doesn't pay to be nice at all.

2010-12-26T01:55:00.003+08:00

What a nice birthday i had - irony
I get attitude from someone that i'm trying to love.
I blew 2k on someone on my birthday and that's the shit i got.

Hi Christmas - Spent time with the trio to get shit from someone that I love.

I think i'm totally out of Singapore. Fucked this. August Here I come.

Recollection

2010-12-20T11:01:00.002+08:00

Money Blundering- I love the way I earned 30k in 1 month and then lost 20k away. cool as it may sound. How much more does someone need? I'm not my dad who earns 60x more $ than i do last year. This year he will earn at least 90-100 x more than me. Nevertheless, a diamond ring, Gucci big and small bag was all there. i spent 3k on those + other misc stuff. That's the screwed up part.

People that walk pass your workstation loves to stare at what you're doing. I've been there for the last few months since i moved to a different lab, but somehow rather ppl just don't know that you exist. They will stare at you whenever they pass by as if you're an alien.

Fri was celebration of my birthday with CS and friends. Was glad to Ace came, but i ended up being sent into Cab by Joe. Nice Pal. Vomitted 3 times @ zouk's Toilet.

Sat was awesome again and ended up at Sean's place. Valley Road off old tampines road. Nice house but Chris sent me home afterthat coz i had to vomit.

Seriously, it's been almost another year and i just feel that my life is still in the stagnant phrase. The only thing i've accomplished is the soon publication of my work in PNAS.

Finally Another Entry after Gazillion years

2010-10-15T01:24:00.002+08:00

Just a short entry. Had been really busy and tired with life.. It's such a squeeze. Work is killing me off as well as other worries. Anyways, We've submitted a paper to Science Brevia.. Swee super impact paper as a co-author on Monosiga evolutionary analysis. yeah ? know what that is? beat that.

Saw Chee Heang in Zouk last night.. 3 years after army life and he's working as an accountant and he mentioned that tourmaline is his senior in the same company. haha

Bleah. watched The ghost movie by Rainie Yang(with Noel and Michelle @ west Mall Only 2 movies in this theatre for the past 10 yrs)- totally absurd movie that is just using it's 3D effect as a selling pot.

Everyone around me in my life seems to be insecure with $- Kelvin, Ace. I don't know why.. but what's with the money issues..

My maid is gone for 2 weeks, which means that my mummy is going to suffer for a while, for i'm a unfilial son.

Revived My Blog

2010-08-12T19:57:00.002+08:00

I realised that I couldn't upload my old blog that i designed for 3 weeks. So I shall spend some time repairing my blog. Afterall, having a blog reminds me about the things, the moments that i have and i think it's definitely worth to update it regularly- at some point of time, you'll be able to look back and know what's happening. Moreover, it's essential to reflect on yourself on a weekly basis. So much things happened since like 8 months ago but i havent' had a story to tell anyone. The trip with Aaron to JB is definitely the most exciting incident of my life. I could have killed myself that night but well i was saved by an angel. Cool*. I'll always remember her face.

Thought it faded away?

2009-12-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

Why come back to my memories again. What i saw during one moment was nice then the next was devastating.

Bye Blogger. Say hello to my new friend:

truthhurtsmeandyou.tumblr.com

kenmakio.tumblr.com -- > my best friends.

2009 with loves.

QuarterCent old.

2009-12-16T01:02:00.005+08:00

The card from Shubha. It was warm. I got to work at 8.30am and found this on my table.

I thought this was sweet. When i came back from Lunch after NYDC with Ryan Ix and Dazmond... I found this on my table. There was a cake too. Jingxi is really thoughtful. Thx.

Didn't take any pictures of cake this year, although i had one in NYDC and another from her. Both rich in choco.

My favourite food now. Had 5 of this last week.

Ryan's Treat - main course KEbah mutton @ Lebanese restaurant @ the end of Holland Road. His treat for the publication of his paper.

The soup starter

The chicken main course.

The 3 starters .. some hummas with peas and some pickled vegetable.

Nothing much this year. Was clubbing with zhiyu last wed.. had 2 fights in a row in zouk on wed. I was just trying to help but in the way .. i hurt my right thumb while the poor chap whom was punched must have felt alot. oh well~..

The wound is better whenever i'm not alone and i hope everything gets better. Somehow rather no one's here to sooth anything yet :).

I in the midst of changing to tumblr.com. It's much more userfriendly than this blogspot in which i've been using for the past few years. I just wanna leave my memories behind for now..

x-Mas mood

2009-12-06T15:25:00.005+08:00

Friday night - Went out with Chris. haha.. had a couple of drinks.. had some chit chat

Saturday night- Meet up with ace.. Bought my Perfume :) $48 only from Lucky plaza. My new wallet that I won't use until my old one is going to go off. Got a bright new white for a new beginning.(15% off for singtel users. 15% of $126) Bought 4 x shirt from French connection. Great sales- 70% off. woot and additional 10% off from American express :).

Chris and Ace to Zouk: Sasha. Had a new set of drinks.. Whiskey coke -> hot n sticky -> barcardi -> red wine --> beer. Totally reversed my drinking cycle for a maximum highness :).

Sasha was a disappointment. The crowd as well. But the sausage hotdog and the cheese+ chicken murtabak was awesome.

Sunday - Parent's friends came to Singapore from taiwan. Apparently my mum's friends are good friend with parents of small S and mother of one of the taiwan tv host. His husband happens to be New york new york's owner. tamade fucking rich. haha. Wish i could kidnap the granddaughter whom will be here today. haha. Will be having buffet dinner.

Pictures below :).

Dinner with Zhirong and Ace last week, Thursday @ brekos.

BK burger- triple mushroom big burger that is coined " monster" :).

The new beginning.

2009-12-02T01:07:00.004+08:00

Burmese Fortune Telling

haha. I didn't mentioned that Wilson took up Feng shui classes @ Singapore Polytechnic. He calculated my fortune using a traditional burmese way.. Well. I'm not too sure about the rest of the fortune telling.. but i do know that one part of it was right, and i'm going to highlight it in RED.

Based on Charts:

Age 1-10 - in house of kingly position
Likes to associate with officials and benefit from such association. Has plenty of followers and follow affluent lifestyle. Would prosper if pursuing arts and technology.

Err.. I didnt' take up arts and technology. I took up Science. Okay phail.

Age 11-29 in house of extremity
House of "all or nothing". Might prosper later in life. Could become an official, rich person or enter monkhood. Brave or cowardly. Give stress to parents.

Well, fuck the monkhood, no fucking way. but the rest.. let's see.

Age 30-41 in house of wealth
Make parents proud. Likely to become a religious figure or professional. Compassionate, generous and well respeted. Will have plenty of friends. Could prosper using oratory skills.

Great.. at least I know $ pays off somewhere in the middle of this age.. Well the sometimes the generalized predictions could be true. ::) :) :).

Oh well. Had a superb tiring day today. Was playing dota with Chris. yeah who the fuck will imagine that.. anyways had a long chat. Somehow rather in life, you have people that come to you when you're in your downs. Everything reversed at the tip start of December. This awesomeness feeling is complies with my work and goal. I have a goal now.. not a clear one yet;but it's getting out of the murky water.

Of course, in life, you do not want to have what we call "xiao guis" to come utilize you, which in most of the times.. they do come in the form of $ burden or what i call time-wasting.

I got so tired of ppl being late that i just simply refuse to hang out with those that don't prioritise you in life. I mean why bother.. You can't keep to the timing.. neither will I. Yeah, people change. so do their attitude towards life also metamorph.

I've learnt. People don't appreciate, then don't bother wasting your time on it. No time for me at all? excuses. For example : Jason coming back from Algeria for a secondary school class gathering, but no one wanted to attend it.. ha.. yeah.. So he doesn't bother as well. fuck it..

Movie - Case 39 - 1st December 2009. GV Plaza (Aaron,Mx,Eunice). 26th Dec 2009 - Ninja Assasin with Glenn(Cine). 23rd Dec 2009 - 2012 with Ace(cine).

Yeah.. well.. I had my Aston's ribeye steak finally at The cathay today. My first time. and my first time that i've ever taken a cab out of work to Orchard. Expensive?. haha.. As long as i'm happy.. It's okay.

Shopped around, Aaron got a subwoofer for $289, this really cool one. Woot~. Played some arcade @ PS.. I went to yamaha and bought Mega starz Hitz 13- woot got cai hong of jay chou. Now I can play the piano for a few more months before it's transported to my 2nd brother's new house.

Yamaha has this "no practice sign" on the piano. Yet at times, you do see children or teenagers showing off their pieces. While waiting for the cashier to complete the payment, i held the book with one hand and tested some of the songs in the book on the piano, this fucking china bitch approached me to croak:

Bitch: " you cannot practice"
Me: huh? but the little kid infront is playing
Bitch: But he's not using a book
Me: wtf you talking about.. as long as you're playing. youre practicing. douche bag. i told her.
Bitch: what did you say?
Me: you won't understand.

hahahaha.. Shiok. She didn't get me. retarded inflexible bitch that can't spread her thoughts nor legs.

Dad is such a wonderful guy

2009-11-30T17:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes.. you wonder why somethings happen.. for one moment you think that everything is fine.. but within the next hour, everything fades away.

My Mum and dad is prolly the greatest beings in my life for all time. I get the support from them all the time.. financially, spiritually, whatever llys.. I got to say that I always disappoint them.. but this time round I've vowed and it's so far as good as it is.. No more empty promises, i said to myself.

It's extremely painful to hear, when he himself has engaged in a 30 story condo in Penang. Woot. finally get a superb city and sea view holiday house. 4.6 sq feet. it's like wow.. Never stayed in such a big condo before.. but i'll be glad that i'll have a touch of this place in the near future. The landmark of Penang @ Gurney Paragon. Afterall.. It's something to look forward to.

Sorrows fly high :).

2009-11-26T02:05:00.002+08:00

boo. I miss the person whom always asked me for weekend lunch. awwie :(.

just so so much missed.....

such a Weakend

2009-11-23T00:46:00.002+08:00

I wonder who even patrons my blog and i guess i'm just writing ultimately for myself to read. The most painful part of my life came in on friday. I finally got to know all the things i didnt' want to hear.. Ended up with the girls sending me home.. got partially drunk .. 5am.

Sat - Rebel - had a bottle.. equally as painful.. someone was nice enough to send me some nice msg as a friend :
"dont emo meno k! Smile! :)."

That's funny. haha.. for once.

Got up on sunday to feel like it's such a weakend.

Jx gave me a told me about what's life for 1 hr over the net.. but i didnt' heed her advice and i tried to reverse what's life. So this is how it goes.. life is like Wow.

I don't want anything for my 25th. I just want no more sorrows and i know Lord will be merciful on that.

PATRON T3quila.

2009-11-21T11:35:00.001+08:00

I survived... and i can still type

why?

WHY?

WHY?

KTV :)

2009-11-17T01:31:00.004+08:00

Wow. I haven't been to Ktv for so long... other than those trips with my NS men and sergeants. Well this is purely for singing and no drinking was involved.

$10 admits you with 7pm - 12am all singing @ chinatown- Family KTV :),. with 1 mimicked shark fin soup + free flow of non-alcoholic drinks.

Of course, my appetite went bonkers and i had some german bratwurts and pork sausage with cheese + pretzel + mashed potato. Siew Mai and Chicken da pao came courtesy from Jingxi. haha.. Michelle offered her bowl of "shark fin's soup" and of course Sheryn asked if i wanted her left over noodles. haha.. somehow rather ppl knew that i was trash bin and a growing boy :). Noel gave me his soup as well... Somehow rather i didn't sing... just never really had a good voice.. listened till 11..

Noel has really good voice, probably the best voice i've heard among all my friends so far. wow.. Doreen was okay but kinda flat in the singing.. Mich was like a sweet little girl. Sheryn didn't sing and Jingxi was like singing all those alama wasanba, cartoon heroes,. dancing queen songs. lol.

It's funny how she likes Ryan but also leaves her choices open for other guys... Well Ryan didn't really show chemistry? :). haha she simply complains to me and Noel everyday over the tiny whiny things that happens...

Sometimes i really envy those couples out there.. Michelle is like so nice to her bf. called her bf during the mahjong session 2 weeks ago just to talk to him. I used to get these.. but well. haha. happy for them at least.. not everything out there is not working out.

Came home after droping off Doreen near my place for her to take cab back to Eunos since i don't know the way and neither does she.. haha.. Anyways dont' have to be so nice to my colleague afterall right? lol.. I brought her closer to him anyways.

Decided to go for a run to kill off my 1 year worth of alcohol. So the cut down on booze has already began, and the exercise regime shall resume after 1 week of break :).. hopefully I'll hit below my target by my birthday. managed to hit 2 mins below my normal 5km running @ 27mins today. woot:).

I happened to look fora file and scanned past things that i didnt' want to recall.. but i just found the candy machine really cute. I recall when i got it.. awwie.. i still feel the pain :(. I reached to the top to look at the slightly dusty cover and dispensed some of the folded paper in the machine. (Picture of the candy machine on top). I realised that those were present from 2years + ago. I've never finished reading it... and now.. reading it...

colored paper kills :(.

Wedding weekend.

2009-11-16T00:29:00.003+08:00

Dunno what happened and somehow the pictures got "distorted". Just took some pictures last week of work. The first 2 pictures starting from the left is ashley's shrimps. 3 - needles used for microinjections. Small and funky. 4 and 5 is the actualy machine that pulls the borosilicate delicate glass.

Recap last week- Had tons of food from that Jingxi lol.. egg tarts tea blah blah.. she's been feeding us way too much.

Drove every single day last week. Got really exhausted by friday. Monday was lunch with michelle, Jingxi, Noel and tay at some chinese restaurant in queensway. had to write about this since i never liked to spend $ on chinese food.

Wed was zouk with fen,cs,ace kelvin junyu and the rest.

Friday was zouk with ace,fen kelvin zhiyu bowen and dunno who. Had hot n sticky x 2 + "ager x 2 + kiss of death

Sat was wedding dinner at grand park city hall then followed by st james with eunice,mx and sarah.. went to mcdonalds for breakfast.. and saw aki. Bottle @ st james - awwie i got drunk and wasted. but we took a polaroid picture with ace mx and eunice. Sarah was drunk as well.

Sun was wedding dinner @ Furama Riverfront with aaron and Shaun. Bin didn't show up. It's funny how my BMT buddy also had his wedding there. Such a coincidence.. awwie..

So much to write.. but i always end up procastinating and goaless.. then another weekend is gone. Alot of work ahead. and shaun gave me a good talk while i sent him home to sim lim. Well..

Realised that i clubbed with ace consecutively for 2 weeks on fri and sat.

Good people comes by, but for the rest of the time.. those are jerks.

Yet again..

2009-11-14T04:48:00.002+08:00

after all this. I thought i've mustered all my courage... I lied to myself again and again... I broke down again.. I couldn't hold myself after my 2 favourite hot n sticky drink. boo~. stayed in zouk's toilet for 10 mins..hey what was i doing? Peifen came down to say hi... i think i wasnt' friendly today... kelvin was taking care of her all the time.. whereby i was just wondering my minds around... It's painful to know more things.. and i'm sorry for the person whom told me.. but it's just so unacceptable :(. I'm in this stage whereby.. i can just drop dead anytime. After 2 weeks of work... I've finally have some Novel genes being discovered. whee~ means something big is coming out from my lab. haha.. on CCDC genes.. but it's just so tiring to work in this new environment.

Attending 3 x wedding on sat + sun. maybe this clubbing trip wasn't meant for me. The little pillow lays beside me everynight and i could smell the droplets..

someone be my saviour please.. Just so emo. :(.. Really nothing can salvage? someone kept telling me false hopes... I'm petrified.

I survived my 6th wednesday

2009-11-05T01:03:00.002+08:00

I follow a few blogs .. and the i literally saw the epiphany word appear after reading some stuff.. The last person that i know that could understand me totally blew it. I guess ppl change afterall.

Advertisement. Not sure how things go. I shall leave everything apart whether it concerns me Not.

First day of work

2009-11-02T21:19:00.004+08:00

As Usual. I've so much to write about my life and others. But the thoughts always come during waiting times at the bus stop etc.. Henceforth, it never shows up here.. let the pictures share my thoughts.

okay. i just entered like a whole entry of fthe reason about the first 2 picture. But apparently. it had to spoil my day by suddenly disappearing of no fucking reason. I tried not to swear in this entry. but fuck this. Need no more explaination then. fuckspot.com.

The endurance..

interlocking good luck clover cross. - Celtic. Bravery.Strength. Luck.

Halloween's night @ clarke quay. packed with wonders.. Amazingly.. you'll not see this 10 years ago.

Chinaone. Got in for free :). Got free beer and shots inside as well.. Sheena's really good flirting with bartenders. lol

Okay.. got some candid pictures haha..

LUnar. Got a private room for Shumin. Joan got it for her Hen's night... They even hired a private stripper. haha.. I clubbed hopped to China1 then back.. Just simple drank too much that night.

here's the Private stripper. lol,.....

First day at work today in SR lab. Tedious to say.. I have tons of work awaiting for me... Well. Gloomy day today :).. But at least music cheers peepz up. haha.. It speeds up then recuperation for anything.

Recap --> Wed - Phuture (CS, Ace, Kelvin, Darren, Isabella and can't remember who the f)

Thur - Double O (Aaron, new found friends.. and lol can't remember their names as well)

Fri - Cant' find anyone out.. Ended up at home with home delivery pizza. Check out pizza hut's promotion. I mean the one with the extra pan. the 30+ one. I finished the whole thing in 1 night after my dinner. excluding 2 slices of the 12 inch pan. hahah.. Beat me.

Sat- China 1( blah blah) + Lunar( Shumin's group)

Sun- CS then Ace @ newton for supper.

Haven't had chance to watch anymovie for the past 1 month or so. Cs said that Jennifer's body was a crap show and the others just didn't look appealing. Sorority show was the last boomz that i saw.. Yeah. I give it a A-.

:(

2009-10-23T01:59:00.005+08:00

Ryan got a poster seminar award and treated us to sushi tei rolls :)

Fish n Co with Dazmond Wilson and Noel Last week @ west coast plaza

Shiromi Omu rice before butterfact on friday with Pallavi, Doreen, Semil, Deepak, Noel. Happened to see Jingxi and her friends there.

7 Shots for 7 peepz. Sadly butterfact got raided last week.

Look at the reentry.. it was horrendous. I left with Nhu.. while the rest stayed. Met up with Melvin and Star after that

Lab notes books for the last 7 years. I had to clear them and submit them to Admin for Storage. Wahhh..

2am in the morning.. sobz. I havent' slept earlier than 2.45 for the last 10 days. I'm proud to finish 1 litre of chivas myself in 1 week during non clubbing days.

Going to stop drinking. I ain't helping.

Saturday's mob manning is 90% confirmed meaning that i've to cut my hair tml :(. Running with Dazmond and Noel tml @ NTU Alumni. Whee.~ no clubbing for me till next year.

Shumin got her hen's party next week.

Double Blow.

2009-10-22T03:19:00.004+08:00

Wow.~ Just 2 months and I guess everything was coming along so fine for the other. It's really painful. I never knew how much I loved a person until I lost it. For she is happy and I'm not. Guys are easily forgotten. No goal No $. byebye. Dont' believe in foolish puppy love. It will never ever happen. Yes, no point bringing it all up again. I'll just say it for once more because i felt this sharp pain every fucking 3hrs of my life. I knew that we weren't perfect, but I never knew that I will just be gone like that.. I'm glad it happened earlier than what i've planned for. Every Single time i hear the fucking LADY GAGA song.. it reminds of her... and lady gaga just die now? for she is included in every single remixes that I've downloaded. How am i supposed to forget.. I can't even date for nuts. The pain just wont' stop unless i get occupied from the time i get up until i sleep. I even dream of her in my dreams... it's so fucked up and life is so unfair. Why is it so one-sided. can someone just delete my memories right now and restart the whole shit? I'm so angry about why its' so unjust. I may not be a very nice guy but i know i don't deserve these hrs of torture.. whether i've made mistake first or not.. it's just too much to handle.

I know it was some fucked up true love when i chose her over some selfish decision. I was just made over some fucking sms. true my ass. 1st or 2nd. all will tell you: ppl changes. hahaha.. i change to but my love never changed.. no wonder i always said. i'll never dump anyone, only that person will dump me. fucking idiot i am. fuck this emo at 4am in the morning.
I don't know why the fuck I'm tearing now and

all I know is that i feel it now.. do you know.. what you are feeling... Where did it come from.. where does it go... - My new trance song that i downloaded from http://www.ipa.tw/.

I had a chat with Geraldine today on msn and yeah she's pretty upset over her boyfriend as well, She mentioned how she disappeared and teared. and i totally know how it feels now again. 4 years ago, i met her in Chinablack and she was out crying out loud when Gabriel left here. I missed my chance for her but I knew that in my whole life I loved 3 person so much.. and well she's one of them.

So back to this broken shit that cannot be amended.. I'm just stuck with one more problem before i can get the fuck out of here. God help.

For the past 3 years, some regretful things that I've not done/missed...

Going to karaoke with someone
Not being able to do any game sports with someone
Never made it out of asia together with someone
the person that slept so soundly
never spent a proper time watching tv together
not appreciating the person over the phone when i was busy at work
not truthful about my finances/ gambling problems
petty over small issues
not doing sweet things for the past 1 year or so.
doing mundane stuff over n over again.. but i know if this passes, marriage is possible, but i guess it's not in this case.
unable to accept some of her friends. Not that i don't but i just can't stand some of them
No one to buy me perfume, toiletries
No one to remind me to stop eating/ about my chores
no one to complain personal stuff to
no more preserved plums or pig organ's soup.
take photos with me.. videos with my hamsters
to correct someone's imperfectly cute English words pronunciation

I look back at the cute toothbrush holder on my mirror i teared. I could no longer see the makeup removal nor the usual plum on my table. I do not know what to do with the remaining.. The poor pillow had been soaked. I'll place everything one side and hopefully I don't have to look at it one day. I know it's so hard..

sounds crazy it may be.. people do thing that the world comes to the end.. it happened to me 3 times..
once when my first girlfriend left me.. I wanted to jump down from my condominium.
when my dad condemned me for overspending and being rude over some shitty thing from my cousins.. i wanted to crash the car right into the tree.
and now 3rd. i had the thought of swallowing as much acid as i could. wow..

those are just thoughts.. ha i'll never do that. okay. I' m sorry blog this sounds cynical. I promise for happier entries. First, her brothers killed my heart, 2ndly she shut off my hopes, lastly, Tourmaline annihilated my wilful dreams.. you gotta move on.

each time i nodded and said yes i'm going to do this and that. but I lied. I show no emotions in front of my colleagues, i acted as if nothing happened in front of my family. The only ppl i told were just some friends.. funny shit it is. Karma.

The right thing?

2009-10-21T15:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just wonder if i did the right thing. I could see hope in the person's eyes yet knowing that the person was speculating. The person just do not wish to see things happen again, neither will the person wanna hear another lie. I'm blocking all this off for the sake of a favour. Knowing that it's a white lie, it should be ok. I took in all the words even the other person gave me a sort of interrogation. "well, i didnt' do it, i said to myself".

At least in the end, the person was truthful to me.. but i found out the unexpected. As scary as it sounds.. I was like wow. Nevertheless, what is done is done. I just hope everything goes smoothly.

I learnt my lesson.. Never trust someone that you trust most, because you will DEFINITELY be disappointed.

When you want something

2009-10-18T22:29:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when you want something so badly, it appears in your dream. Then you get so delighted and thought it all came back.. Then you realised the actual fact that truthhurts and you're not going to get back what you want. I ain't going to come back foolish boy. Don't think about it. yeah... That's what i felt this morning.

The point of time when you cant' be bothered about what's going on around you. Just keep calm and live.

Wow

2009-10-12T17:59:00.003+08:00

Not mentioning what I saw on friday night @ Zouk. I was amazed by the punch thrown in by Z. It was like lights on. bam. lol.

Dad's in Norway, and bro wants to buy a bungalow for 3M dollars. I mean omg. he already has a semi D and some other properties. In fact both brothers has have like more than 1?. I don't know what he's thinking about and if dad agrees.. I'll be intrigued.

Not sure what life is going on now.. But i know the twist is yet to come.

My Lab is closing and the equipment list is released today. more than 7 labs of people approached me to look through the equipments. OMG. lol. Someone asked: are you all alone in the lab. I said yes. and very lonely. LOL.

Anyways the new beginning starts on 30th OCT. Great thing is that i'm out of the recreation/retreat committee and officially out of the fun of the IMCB. Afterall these 2 years.. I've contributed quite some stuff.. It's time to rest.

Maybe It's perth. Ruth, Ken, Daniel all wants it there. My heart wants to stay here. My mum wants it @ the East Side. Help.

I've watched so many movies for the past 3 weeks... Funny people with Ace last saturday. Surrogate with Daniel last Monday. and i can't recall how many more.. blood ties. blah blah. Till then.

St james

2009-10-04T04:34:00.002+08:00

Met up with Aaron while he was bartending.. Drove down, met up with Star, Irvin and Melvin. We parked at harbour front thinking that it was a per entry trip of $2 but ended up paying $8.16. haha. We walked so far too.. argh!

Then met up with Ngu(phD student in Vk's Lab) and Grace and jasmine.. We got into Powerhouse and had a few drinks before going to the bar area to chill and watch Man U match. Of course, i will hope that Man U will lose. I'm a fan of Sunderland, Spurs, Arsenal. So yeah.. but it ended up with a disappointing 2-2. Well, the -1.75 handicapp was a joke. Anyways the queue to head back to powerhouse was way too long after the soccer match. Hence, we decided to head home and here i am blogging after sending Irvin home to sengkang. It's funny how i got get my way home again.. Somehow rather Sengkang. hmmm.

When ya driving home, have you wondered how it feels? It reminds me of the roads in the states. I could be driving for 30mins in the chilling coldness without switch the aircon. I miss those days so much. I could drive in the snow and enjoy my music with my windows down. Ahhh~

Those days when my mummy won't be around and when i was all alone. I will have a few groups of friends.
Matt and Derek annie group
Vietnamese group 1- Duc, Phi
Vietnamese Group 2 - Steven Troung
Korean Group- Jhun, Min woo, Gloria, Betty, EunJIN!!!!
Rita,Stefan, Jacky group
PSU arcade group
My cousin
Tamas Ugrai - Hungarian.

It sounds so pathetic, but yeah... their company was the only happiness.. otherwise staying in the states will be feeling so lonely. Aloof.

Then in Singapore..
Star group- JM,Irvin, Melvin
Sec group - CS, HR
IMCB group - Dazmond, Noel, Augustine, Wilson
Bin Group - Aaron, mx, sarah, Eunice, Bin
Kelvin Group - Nigel, Desmond etc..

wow... Sounds like I've no friends.. It's just so woot that when u lose a girlfriend. You do not know what to do. I do not know whom to call.. I checked the amount of sms that i've used last month and released that half of it was to my colleagues. another half was to my clubbing friends. the total sms did not exceed 120 i think.
The only calls i get is from CS once every 4-5days. HR once a week. Bin once a day until recently. Aaron - once every 3 days. Kelvin once every 3 days. Star once every 2 days. lol.

There's also something so weird. Cliches of friends just can't get together. They kinda not wanna mix around. hais~..

I envy those daes. i'm jealous of others. I wish I could collect time. ** 4th of October, I said.

Kindness is never appreciated

2009-10-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

Marina Cove.

Pig Organ's soup @ Lavender- Supper on a friday night with Irvin and Star.

Noel's Art Piece.

$105 worth of Junkies.

As I said, one bitten, twice shy, third fly. Some people are in the state of denial, and just kept ignoring what i said. I give up. I think I've lost another friend. So long. 3k.

Thursday - Had to buy all the food from TPY. all the junkies for my company retreat with Noel and yet cant' get a single cab for 30mins @ the central area. Ix and Ryan joined the night for Mahjong session. I won $40 from 1.5 rounds. Woot. We slept at 4 or so and Dazmond picked us up on friday. It was sad that i was part of the organizing committee. We had mini soccer goal posts and Volleyball net set up @ tanjong Beach. 300 Beers, 300 Soft drinks/ water + junkies, Rum + Gin. Wow.~ The sad thing.. the bus came at 7.15pm and erm people kinda are not willing to clear up the mess. We set it up, and pulled it down. hai~. I'm not pointing fingers, but i think it's the last time i'm organizing anymore activities for the company. It doesn't pay off.

So the initial plan for butter with semil was crossed out. The plan for double O was crossed out.. since i'm pissed with someone. The someone ended up @ China one. Erm seriously... nvm. I ended in my zouk and hey hey.. haha was damn crowded.. but who cares.. i had all around the world + 1 shot of kiss of death. Ended off @ lavender for supper.

I just watched Confession of a shopaholic.. Woot. Nice film. Sunburnt..

*It's sad how things flew away from you. It never pays off to be nice. Never.

Sometimes you think back

2009-09-30T19:05:00.004+08:00

Sitting in my office and looking back.. wow~ It has been 2.5 years since i've joined this company. And looking back.. it was lotsa joy and happiness here. This is prolly the reason why I'm still here.

Right after my Us trip 2007 for about a month in New York and Portland, I headed back to this country in search for a job. dang dang.. My current boss awarded me with this job.. with a pathetic starting pay.. then it was a jump of a few hundred and a nice decent bonus.. then all of a sudden... the Murdoff blah blah thingy has to come into picture to thwart everything. Of course, now i'm in the brim of changing to a different lab.. but all the memories still stays. Afterall, I'm still a lvl 8 guy.

Getting this job was like a dream, because it was never easy to get a job @ imcb. You had to be like one of the best, I was taken in because i was unique. erm well not really, I've learnt stuff and watched how people resigned and leave.

The Pros: a 105 ride guarantees me a straight bus home
Flexibility: i could literally come in late, and go home late.. I had my hair dyed purple,red,blue, blonde.. whatever earrings was also fine.
Lunch buddies: the lunch buddy was at it's peak during 2007- Wilson, Veron, Dazmond, Ix, Bernard, Augustine, Ashley, Ruth, William, Noel, Ryan,JianFeng and so on... but now at least half of the peepz are long gone.

Cons: Working with TKLs are a pain in the ass. You are like seriously working with fuckers that are the most thicked skinned people in the world.
The pay = shitty like hell. 30% less than a 2nd upper honours student. I mean i'm not super honest, but hey. .i don't deserve this shit right?
haha..

Well. at least i'm in the recreation committee(fun and loving), and the retreat committee.. dang dang.. we organized IMCB amazing race as well as the Dinner and Dance.. Then the upcoming retreat.. We're part of it..

Oh well. thinking back. i gotta carry on tml.. since I've to have dinner with noel.. and Drink some tonight. Adios for now.

--> Continuity from Wednesday night.. I ended up @ Brekos.. having a set dinner Happy hour with Noel haha.. Oh well.. There was waffle and the ice cream float apart from our ribeye steak(that was later changed to sirloin steak) because the restaurant did not have enough Ribeye to spare for the night. Oh.. I saw Zien again for the like 2nd/3rd time @ Holland V?
Well, all the nice chats till 10pm, when Star picked me up to head down to zouk.

CS went down with Jianli and another friend.. cant' remember whom it was. Star was with me and Kelvin. Had some simple drinks since i had 2 beers @ brekos. Not sure why.. but I ended up drunk again.. and got home after supper around 4am. I skipped thursday' Company retreat and slept in till 1am.

live gets shady and hideous

2009-09-23T00:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes. I do not know how to express. Each time i try to get back on track, life just gets shadier. People kept lying, I kept hiding and denying. The KL trip was a total drinking + foodie trip. I never liked Malaysia, not to even mention about their politics.

I was lonely, so i just had to go. but the company was good.. Things put aside, I've not had a good sleep for so long. I've not been home for dinner for the past 2-3 weeks. Was just trying out a new lifestyle. It's like i wanna die lifestyle and i don't know how she can take it. If i was her, i would have passed out.

I watched The traveler's wife. It was heartbreaking, but i acted strong. yawned my sorrows away and acted as if it was a comedy. It's painful.. separation anxiety.. then there was a movie called the notebook. Then i experienced it myself. I told myself i won't travel again. I don't want to get separated, but i always end up alone. It's scary to know that I've only skipped last than 5-6 times of wednesday clubbing sessions apart from the US trip. In fact, I vomitted on friday and saturday night of this KL trip.

Work? Work totally sucks. People that doesnt' want to clear up things in the lab. They are giving me a pain in the ass. For the comfort of their work, i had to suffer for another month. Seriously, sacrificing is just not worthwhile. Hence, I heed the advice to ignore and not to prompt. Everyone's just hiding away from their responsibility of clearing up. I've learnt to shut some stupid fucking bitch from telling me what to do. She's of no rights to tell me what to keep, for she is not even part of my company.

So hows life? my life's a shit hole right now. you dont' wanna hear more. I'll just be acting..

Life is so cruel and difficult

2009-09-09T02:48:00.003+08:00

I had a scuffle with both my new and old boss today. Under pressure, i managed to find a solution to move into the new lab on the 1st of november, whilst i complete everything that's left in this lab.

we went to west coast park today to have KFC. I bought a chicken. rubber chicken that could make a weird loud cockerdo. haha and a billabong t-Shirt. whee~. Shall upload the pics soon. billabong is having a 50% sale.

Dinner was pathetic.. and i had some xiao wan mian @ the holland dr coffeeshop with Noel. Life so tough when i'm alone. Even running 5km is such a difficulty to me right now.. and i had to stop twice during the run. Been decades since i've bought the last pack of cigarette.

Today is the 9th of September 2009. It's special to me. I'm not sure about the rest.. Maybe they can call 999? I can't sleep at all.. and it's like 3am in the morning.

Well, at least last night was fun.. watched the proposal with bin,ace,mx and eunice. then headed down to beds for a drink.. and it become 2... Wow.. Saw Kay kay working there.. and the funny thing is that I saw Chris Toh. ha.. we had a good chat.. and he's really doing well. oh well.. then we headed down to downtimes? lan game shop.. It's funny how Sheralyn was there with her gf. weirdness thing happen.. At least i fell asleep by 3am.

Publish Post

I consume an average of 1.5 litres of pokka whatever a day.

Time will fly.. i hope to see 2010 soon. I'm choking to death soon.

Double O

2009-09-06T04:54:00.002+08:00

The Standing area behind us drinking volcano

Our jugs and finished agers?

"joy sticks" for e 7th month? haha

Ate at Marketplace.. lol. Prata with Porky~~~.

So it was the 3rd day of the week that i've clubbed. Wed was butterfactory with Becky,Aaron,Bin, Sebastian, Eunice and Sarah.. Then we got into some scuffle towards the end. kelvin vomited as well. We had steamboat at Aaron's prior to the party and that careless Beck lost her iphone. Awwie.

Friday was Zouk with Star, JM, Irvin, Melvin and Howei. I seriously don't understand why Melvin gets so emo and could just like get so bored and talk so much crap. He ended up leaving earlier without telling us. Zouk is seriously getting more boring and the music is getting a little too afresh.. No one likes it anymore. I don't. At least not comparable to those that I've gotten from www.ipa.tw.

Saturday - my mum and dad was staying @ Swissotel hence, i had dinner with them and joe @ Market place. It's funny how my mum asked this question.

Mum: You want to ask her to come along for dinner?

Me: oh. . she's not free.

Mum: The dinner is on us and we haven't seen her for long time?

Me: oh.. not sure..

Joe: don't ask so much -> to mum.

Then the next thing..

Mum: wanna play mahjong tml?

Me: We do not sufficient players

Mum: what about asking her to come play?

Me: Okay. i got dumped. happy? Why probe so much.. it was getting so annoying.

dad: Let's get more food.

[ ha it was funny how it's in chinese and i'm translating it into English].

i picked the rest up from TPY today and sent them down to double O... The drinks came from aaron and bin.. and it's funny how we sat there for hrs until 3+ before i saw Qiwei. He happened to know Clifford whom is Qiwei's friend. Then Aaron was trying to hit on his friend Janice and then his gf Jamie. lol. They are all inter-related during their NSF times. YOu know.. those upper study of this and that. So. Aaron was the upperstudy of Clifford and Clifford was the upperstudy of Qiwei.

Anyways, i took the initiative to send Qiwei home back to Sengkang. Afterall, I could find my way home thru the Punggol park(turn left) then somehow managed my way to upper serangoon road then boom home. It was never done back then.. I needed so much guide from the person seated in my car.

I looked through the bag and saw some sour plum.. I just didn't know what to say. I looked into the dance floor and realised what i was doing there. I see couples.. and I felt so lonely. So so lonely and i do not know what to do each day. I FSD almost all the time when i'm alone.. and I freaking can't take it... I just hope to get occupied and try to cope with everything. I have no one to stop me from eating too much. I have no messages from anyone except from Ryan to ask me to play games. Bin to ask me out. Star/Kelvin to ask me to club.. Cs/Ace to ask me out. and Push messages/promotional messages. Then I realised i only have 1 girl that sms me. lol. Pathetic. I shunt myself from the rest and now i get all this in return. Boo~...

I know i will love myself. I told myself each day. I know that i can be saved. I know i can pull through. I'm a great actor @ work. I must stand strong. ha. i'm great to hide my emotions. I am. Since one fine sunday on the 16th of August.

FSD

2009-09-04T02:57:00.003+08:00

FSD means Feeling Super Depressed. I slept at 5am on Sunday, 3am on Monday, 2am on Tuesday, 5am on Wed, 3am right now on thurs and not asleep yet.. I cannot control my emotions and I feel like stabbing my heart. help.

So I wasn't the bad guy afterall

2009-08-29T14:33:00.002+08:00

It's funny how you get sixth sense... and somehow things come to you. so i decide to chance upon some pictures dated on 7th June? ha.. Weren't we together? I mentioned not to meet that guy. and boom there u go again.. It started from your sms.. don't blame it on me.

Star was right.. no more love means no more. He couldn't accept the fact.. neither could I. It took him 3 months to get over.. It will take me more than that... But for what i know.. the ugly truth is out. You left me in a ditch during the transition of my life... and then hung out with so many OMGS. Yeah i got pretty boring.. as what Star said... but u lied to me umpteen times.. I guess there's no need for explaination nor do I have to blog anything about this anymore...

I don't know why people run away from the problem.. we could have always talked it out. I only wanted to express my feelings about it.. and puff the status is offline. You don't trust me and you will never again.. coz neither will i trust u again after what i saw... I am digusting.. and so are you.. really disappointed me. And if you happen to have the first name starting with T and a middle with a H. ha. good luck to you.. you fucking flirt with my ex during my r/s. u fucking die of no wiener. Period. Nah.. we won't be able to meet up. sadly.

You chose the path. i've made my decision. For all the past.. i've no regrets now.

While i'm trying to waste away my friday night

2009-08-29T05:37:00.002+08:00

.. I realised that Star's group(excluding JM, Irvin,Melvin) + howei made me forget about everything. All those 3 years.. Still trying to salvage it till today... i think it's time to let it go.. I dont' know why. i drank so much and 5.30am after supper.. I'm still awake thinking..

For the past 3 weeks, it was just mickey and me. I felt so lonely. 1st weekend was occupied by tears.. 2nd was by Family visiting cousins in KL, Penang. This week.. I chanced upon some pictures on Facebook... which included someone whom happens to be my childhood neighbour's friend. ha ha ha what a world. Fucking piece of shit. That killed me totally. So disheartened.. I just hated this person so much. and the root of the problem was him.. and now i see the pictures with him..

Let it go i say.. sadly. I thought it would have come back.. Nevertheless before the 1 month.. i feel like stabbing the person through the my monitor via the internet.

I shall not care.

Beaten again

2009-08-25T20:27:00.002+08:00

Once it was mine.. then now It's no ones. I do not know where the heart is. After 2 weeks of dismal, I was excited to see her again... But getting rejected again.. was quite a pain. She's still the same here.. except that she has happy lives that i listened to.
On another hand, i just need this support from someone @ this moment, which comes mainly from my colleagues. In fact, my work is just burning me away, but i'm trying to cope now. I have no time to prepare for anything.. unless i work the extra hard...

All the old good memories brought me so much pain when i boarded e cab. I felt so much and then the same thing happened again. Maybe i should just start all over again.. I dont' want anything else now.. but i'm just so tired of doing anything to keep it. Just so much.. I wished i never did anything wrong. All e talking now is useless.

I never got to sing with, never played mahjong at e house, never really clubbed much with, never really watched tv with,

I'm trying to be patient now.. really trying hard.

I'm glad she's still her. I miss her.

5th session of running since then

2009-08-18T18:53:00.003+08:00

so then i started to get lively with my blog now.. for now i have no more tuition commitments nor do i have any activities.
Meeting my bffs tonight? but definitely tml since ace is taking leave on thursday.

It has been just 5 session of running since 4th august. As i'm determined to cut down on the extra pounds and train up for my free $400 dollars. By September i will up the runs to thrice a week/ or 2 x 10km runs.

Western Australia is my top choice now for my masters. Other than the biggest blow... and the shit that ppl give me at work (More like they are relying on me).. I'm surviving well. I just beg that i dont' get the relapse for the past 3 days.. Pills seem to have pacified my pain better. Thanks Daz for the run.

I'm indecisive afterall

2009-08-18T00:15:00.007+08:00

I got up after alighting the bus.. CS asked to hang out.. I said no. Ace called to hang out on wed for clubbing. I'm giving it a miss. Afterall i'm heading to malaysia this friday and heading back on monday.

Rachel asked.. where's huilin jie jie. i haven't seen her for long time. I told her that huilin was not free. Karen corrected her and i guess she knew what it was. No one expected me to feel so negative about this.

Mz took me 3 years to get over. 9 months in US. and almost 2.5 years till i found huilin. But i guess this time round i'm older and more matured.. but i didnt' think i would have felt so devastated. it hit me so hard that i ran to her house and back last night. I teared the entire night till 5.15 in the morning. my whole left eye was sore this morning.

I was like a strong actor. i acted the whole day, i tried to be strong. Then i realized that I had to head to the toilet for some breather. I finally teared again when i was at my work station. This time round William saw.. and asked what happened. I told him that i had a very bad headache. I took a cab to holland Village to see the doctor. i told him that i was feeling some chronic depression. he initially refused for the prescription, but ended up giving me some sertraline other my constant pressure. I think my right he had to see me a few more times.. i guess i can be drug addict from that.

I set a goal before i left for US, for a change in life. I don't feel like drinking that much anymore, nor do i feel so much in gambling. The goal was to find a school as well.. the support came from my parents and my erm ex-gf? things changed.. now i'm being squeezed at work.. squezzed by my parents. even she said that i was indecisive. I couldnt' let it go. I couldn't concentrate at work. I feel so aloof and lonely again. i couldn't stop thinking of it the whole of last night.

Could I have done something better?
I thought i was the one that was holding the triumph card all along. i was wrong. peepz don't cherish what they have until they lose it. I guess even if a miracle happens now, i will feel so scared that it came back. Coz for i have weeped so much.

Mz once told me that she would marry someone that has watched 100 movies with her. I chose to keep the number of movies i've watched at 100. i never since updated it. but i believed i've watched enough with her.

Maybe i was jealous.. i was really trying..

I did wrong again.. if it never happened.. this may have never happened.. maybe it's a blessing.. we share different traits.

if she had gone for the US trip, maybe things would have been different. why gambling. i used to have quite a bit of savings a year ago... god is not fair this time. he didn't warn me about this coming. although that cab driver on friday asked me to convert or believe in sth. Now i believe in miracle.

we used to tickle and laugh so much together.
we used to have little hugs during tv commercials
we used to be so sweet together. i loved those pictures.. now we hardly ever take any.
we used to dine at wherever we wanted.. or at least have some pork intestine soup.
she used to stay over so that she could have more time with me.
she used to pick me up and dazmond even said that she was the best
she used to call me to tell me about her day.. but i was busy at work. then in the night, i was playing dota away..
we never sang because i didnt' like singing..
we gave tuition together
we had part time jobs together
we had common friends
we used to frequent the beach together.
we will buy earrings for eachother
she would be my road guide. no one is there to guide me anymore
she would monitor my expenses.. and now i dont' have the naggy pair of ears anymore.
I regretted not listening more. .and being more patient.. and always so hot- tempered. but i believe i did try. I'm just a nobody now. when peepz can be living happily outhere.
she used to give in to me all the time. i really abused that.. now it's all gone. no one is going to accompany me.
she used to love green tea.. my house have no food to make her happy. she used to eat at my place.
i miss her so so much. i looked so much forward to seeing her.. and now my whole weekend is burnt. life is so unfair. Why am i the one weeping now. should me be the one cheating and be the one that's the bad guy.. why am i even crying.. her memories are just everywhere.. i dont' even know how to dispose it. deactivate facebook? throw away all the alblums and delete all the pictures on my computer? i can't bear too. do i even have a chance? i gain no trust now. and i'm just another indecisive guy.

I just feel so lost and why could i do it last night. coz i'm so indecisive. i can't even decide on my life.

then i read about the facebook comments on photos. i couldn't imagine the replies given. on 1 hand chatting to me. and the other having a happy laugh. i feel so so hurt.

So then i prayed for the miracle

2009-08-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

after 30 mins of run. i reached the bottom of the building.. then i decided that i didn't have the courage to head up. So i took a quick break and ran back towards my place. A total of 1 hr with 7 or so mins of walking. Things flew thru my mind.. kinda remorseful and disappointing.. just couldnt' stop thinking of it. i hope for the miracle, so then i texted again.. but then i realized that there wasnt' a reply. I guess it was long dead. I could sense it months ago. Then, why be sad over it during the commotion time.

Why does everyone have to end this on me like this. 4 years ago it was like this. It was just 9 months of ignorance. Then i went to mchk0611.diaryland.com to take a look. it was 9 months of silence, before someone actually spoke up and ended that way.

Now this time it was over a very trival matter, or at least i didn't know what was the thing. I was frustrated over something.. but i know it was partly my fault. This time it was not what i've expected. Never did it last for more than 1 day. then i decided to delete it off. but it kept coming back. More than 10 messages.. but not a single reply.

I told Kelvin on friday night after the cab ride. Not a single one preached to me about god. this time round the cab driver questioned about my faith.. and kept telling me to convert.. then i told him it wasn't the right time. he warned me about the resultant.. Ha.. then things happened.. So when i get devastated, i always go to the bible. So i think it's time to again.

I'm so heartbroken this time. I'm being ignored and it really hurts. I dont' care about anything else. i just want a forgiveness and miracles this time.

Will you help me God?

utterly disappointed and devastated

2009-08-16T20:15:00.004+08:00

Never did i feel more than this for the last 5 yrs. It struck me so hard. It's just another misunderstanding or my fault. The burger went into the bin. Just over a carls junior and the parking lot. It was just because i wanted to help out at X-periment. Things may have been different, for the whole day i just feel so disappointed that i was late for work today. nothing is ever coming back again. I cannot understand why. This time round i gave in and I'm sorry.

My heart gave way last night. It's so painful and terrible.

It's just when i try so hard to get it back.. and it's all gone again. I wished it never happened.. It was so important to me. Now everything has to go. I have to go as well. I'll leave this place and disappear forever.

It's just like what ashley said. ripped apart over n over again. No wonder she was online last night.

It only took me 5 mins before i couldn't take it anymore. I want to delete the whole fb. I'm going to bedz. fucking shit world.

The more i think of it the more sad it gets..

2009-08-07T00:51:00.001+08:00

hai..

6th of August

2009-08-07T00:38:00.003+08:00

I could see the frustrations in my brother's eye. He's probably feelign what i'm feeling.. just that he's better off.

I cannot handle the workload right now @ work.. and i'm just wasting my life off facebook's mafia game and dota. My parents are concerned.. till the point whereby they said that i'm old enough. I've pushed everything away... I'm so dreaded. My own friends are far away from me.. coz i don't wanna hang out.. but just stay home with my own life style. I havent' even been to Ion orchard. I just feel so depressed.. was supposed to teach tuition, was supposed to watch tv.. but i'm bounded to the computer. It's my only way of relieving stress now i guess. I don't really wanna drink anymore.. I don't really wanna read anymore. Not a single word was on me, neither did i mention anything about the other. I just feel disappointed and neglected.. but i'm used to it now. I have to freaking read the blog to understand whats' happening..

Even dazmond had to quarrel with me over petty stuff on the gaming stuff. i just snapped and told him to stop kbkp. both felt that it was the other party's fault. I felt otherwise.. but i just kept quiet in the end,afterall we are colleagues, friends and neighbours. He prolly takes up so much of my time although both of us thinks that we are both annoying.

Just disappointed. I'm a boring guy. i just wanna stay home from now on. glad that i ran 2.4km today with daz.. ran on tuesday and today. It's time to lose those extra pounds.

I wonder. nothing asked.. but why isn't it so... No one is telling me why. sad.

so tired

2009-08-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just so tired of everything.. exhausted.. and aloof.

untouched

2009-08-04T20:57:00.004+08:00

When u lose urself to alcohol.. this is what happen.. eating when getting high..

Myself wasting the bulk of my life.. a few hundred hours in age of empires, a few hundred in counterstrike then call of duty 4, 5 - then dota and facebook. I lost my life to technology and soccer NOT.

Was supposedly a nice picture.. but i was too handsome.. that the artiste couldn't draw a nice picture haha.. well it's the past..

he sent me all the cards that was done by all this cute students from Hiroshima. how nice.. still m best friend. and always will be..

Good things don't last.. one of the happier moments of my life.. too bad 2 of them are gone.. 1 changed to become a bimbo which i hate.. the other lost in life in the southern hemisphere.. another in the midst of becoming one bimbo.

From left- William Tse(postdoc in my lab whom is leaving for Japan to embark on a new journey). Out of the whole picture.. 5 person is gone.. some went on to study ph.D(ruth), some to Hospital( kk- qimei, Veron- SGH), Safety officer- bernard, Augustine to runx lab.

This was 2005 in the Early March. This is why i can understand what a guy can talk so much crap about their army life.. boast about their achievements.

2.4km - 9 min 33seconds

Standard Obstacle course - 7min 48 seconds
21km run - 1hr 50min
15km competition run(engineer) - 8th position/500+ 1hr 8mins

I see daniel in the picture.. But he never got commission.. as what ppl say.. ppl change.

Because army is just so tough.. yeah but we went through it. NOT. Reservist is the beginning of pain...

I even wrote this down on my army scrapbook-

101204 -060105 - 4 weeks PTP
070105-090305 - 9 weeks BMT orion company

100305-200305 - Break for 2 weeks.. - The week when i first got into a fight.. and kicked the shit out of someone(the chinese new year), also the day on friday whereby YaoChang jumped down outside zouk.

SISPEC BSLC - Bravo - 210305-290405

OCS FOxtrot - 300405-240605
SOCJOG - 270605-060705 -> brunei trip
Field Engineer - 070705 - 101205

111205- 12-12-06 - Commission Officer in ETI

Now - Pioneer infantry officer 2pdf.

untouched meaning not affected in this context... The veronicas may explain my feelings now.

I do not understand why we have bastard neighbours.. I do not understand why God is still not explaining to me what is God. I'm not agonistic nor infidel.. just being a atheist... so plz explain to me... I Do understand the power of $ and why it's one of the best solution to make someone happy, but i do despise it, yet i'm not greatly affected... i just despise that. I pity those whom are suffering.. like the crazy lady that board the bus everyother day when i see her, talking to herself. Maybe in blessings because she does not understand what is happening. I do not understand how academic helps, because basically doing a good job in life is not being appreciated. I'm losing it.. things came by and brushed past.. coz i never did cherish it... I felt so happy when i was in US.. i really missed e life there.. but i couldn't let anything down here.. I just felt untouched.. coz my accompany rather goes for supper with friends.. coz i'm just rotting my life away.. nothing gets done.. It only does when i start blogging about it. I just feel so terrible now.. of what i heard moments ago.. so i shall start running...

I got home to see my nieces crying.. it's my sis-in-law's birthday today.. but my parents are busy preparing for the sale of the factory and house.. and some other purchases which i cannot fathom. Seriously i do not know how much my dad has, but i know he's just doing all those for us.. Kudos to my mum too. They living a frugal life, saving 9.50 of everything that they are earning out of $10. I wont' be surprised if my dad has much more than I expected after hearing what he was talking to the agent.. i don't know but i do know that tml will be a busy day. i just wanna send my parentns to the airport for their tibet trip and hope that they have safe trip.

God help

2009-07-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

So I had dinner with Shumin and Bin @ sushi tei again. Oh well I haven't met shumin for 2-3years.. Bin brought along a friend called Nikko whom told me that God is all out there to salvage your life. Well, thx to Bin's graveyard and her long island tea.. I'm kinda gone by 1am last night.. and thanks to all those.. It's kinda sad.. coz she's like holding a Tongo passport. She's kinda ostricized by our own government.. so she can't really stay in SG.. oh well.. then she told me about how she went to church and stuff, when bin went to meet someone else.. I was kinda sad that i didn't really hang out with Kelvin and desmond. I spent 30 mins walking around like an idiot trying to find my own gf.. to realise that she was not around.. I guess i was really drunk.. I stumbled into the cab. and off i go. Oh I saw peifen, Alex and Hubert too.. Hubert brightened my day..

Someone once said that i mei liang xin.. now i begin to think so too.. but it's so fucked right now... only God knows. It's just like i really have to go. Well retribution you call it.. 2 weeks in US was really heavenly.

Saturday - Tuesday

2009-07-09T03:51:00.003+08:00

Friday- Since the fridge's compressor was not working, we decided to drive down to Seaside earlier. But we ended up leaving Portland around 10 +. Stefan drove to Ann's friend's house to pick them up from stanother birthday party before we headed down to Seaside.

Saturday - 12.30am we reached the beach house which looked old but surprisingly nice. It had 2 rooms, bunker beds, piano, ping pong table and nice courtyard for us to play volleyball. The nice thing is that it was located on the 14th street and was only stone throw away. I watched truman show till 2.30am.

Morning 11am- we were initially thinking of clamming at the shore, but ended up digging a firepit for the preparation of the nighttime firework. It took us 2 hrs for the digging of the hole, before Queenie and jones arrived. Maggie, Mya and George and Vanessa came later... and then Jade, cecilia, Joyce, Aaron (1am), John(2am).

We played volley ball frisbee etc... then went into the cold sea.. which was freezing cold. It was a nice coast facing the Pacific ocean. Woot. the most western part of US.
The Night doesn't come till 9.30pm, so the fireworks starts about 10pm, while we started our firepits to keep ourselves warm. -- Nice fireworks.

When we were packing up, we kinda lost Stefan. and he went missing for 1.5hrs. we went around looking for him.. zz and apparently he passed out on the grasspatch somewhere and made us really worried.. In the end, he still made it home.

Sunday - we got up with a little hangover, went to seaside downtown and had dairyqueen for lunch, had a 9-seater bicycle ride, arcade games, before returning back to the house's yard for volleyball game when we were stoned. Had pizza hut and barbecued food for dinner and slept.

Monday - got up and had to clear the stuff and be out of the place by 11am. We went crabbing at tillamook.. the place was freaking cold, because the sun was not out yet. approximately 50+ fahrenheit. we had 3 baits and kinda caught mostly females and no males. or males that were not of the correct size, which means that we can't keep those. It is actually illegal to pick up crabs that are females. Anyhow, we still caught them and went up to the beach to cook it. Yum yum..

We then headed to Tillamook cheese factory as well as the meat factory for some icecream, cheese and beef jerky.

Then it was clamming time, before we left at sunset - 9,30. We reached Tigard, Jade's restaurant to collect my wallet, which was misplaced with him during the seaside trip. We got home and got stoned while watching the hitcher, before heading to bed.

Tuesday - Had subway with stefan and Aaron, before he had to return back to Corvalis for work. went traveling in the car with Stefan, while he did his errands, bought cakes from Zupans because papa haydens required at 24hr advance for the ordering of cake. bought a putter from golf smith, went to clackamas town center to search for gifts. Went to forever21.. woot the stuff is so cheap there.. like 3-5 dollars each.. Ambercrombie, AE.. etc..
We went to My brother's clawfish to get some food before heading to Ann's house and party last night before everyone passed out. It was Rita's birthday.. and we had nice food..

Day 5 (wed - Friday) day 7

2009-07-04T09:49:00.002+08:00

So it was Wed morning, and i ended up not going for shooting, because we slept alot and Stefan has to open up his restaurant at 6pm. i can't remember what i did that day.

Thursday - Played Street fighter 4 @ Brian's place. stayed over at lucky strike and we had a little party for JADE. It was his birthday. i got so smashed that i puked all over the bed and made a mess in the toilet.

Friday - I got up at 4.30pm and i cleaned up the whole place.. well not entirely, threw all those dirty linen and bedsheet away.. and we're packing up to head over to seaside which is about 2 hrs ride from downtown Portland. I chose this instead of going to California with my uncle. We booked a beachhouse for the 16 of us, so that we'll spend 3 nights there to see fireworks and to party :). Everything is just in the mess right now. Stefan's fridge went out and all his pre-food and stuff went bad.. So he's closed for today and now we're bag home. I puked 3 times today including the one outside BEST BUY when he was buying the ipod dock for RIta for her birthday present coming up on the 8th of July. I'm kinda incoherent right now.. coz i just want everything out of my mind.

Was at Burger king drive through last night, when i asked for vodka sprite, the guy said he could only get me rum with coke. haha it's so funny when it comes to Americans. I guess that will never happen in Asia.

Off for the weekend. and will be back on Monday. The temperature here is scorching hot around 90 - 100 degree Fahrenheit. But it'll drop to about 60s at the seaside.

Day 3 - 4

2009-07-01T18:54:00.002+08:00

Day 3 - Monday : I got up around 2-3. Stefan got me upand we went to sushiland in town to have sushi. I then got myself tacobell. We headed to PSU when we took pictures and stuff, i went to get my transcripts before proceedingto play Laser tag with Than and Larry(ann's brother), then we went to play archery. We got back to stefan's place and got really stoned from the greens then headed out to Clackamas Town center to watch The hangover @ 9pm. OMG it felt such a weird shit of getting so high and then noticing that things felt so weird.. haha.. the movie ended around 10.50 and catch transformers for free at the theatre till 1+. We got home and smoked again.. I got wasted and just fell asleep after watching family guy with him on the TV.

Day 4 - Tuesday - Got up and grabbed lunch from Jack in the box drivethrough then headed to Jones and Queenie's place. Watched Inkheart while waiting for Rita and Queenie to get done from the Gym. We went to the beach and had barbecue there... before heading to Ann's place to sing karaoke.. Well i don't sing, so i played texas hold 'em and boom i'm back here right now. slightly drunk. and just wanna blog before i run out of internet time. ha.. shall revise and reform these entries when i get more time and pictures uploaded.

Day 0 - Day 2

2009-06-30T03:54:00.002+08:00

It was really really nice to be at the airport somehow.. The relief of taking a break was finally arriving.. But then i had to PART. sobz... I'm glad that I had something with me.

The 7hr + ride to Narita airport was a long and dreadful one. I had to be scrutinzed by the security checks conducted throughout the journey, let alone the one that i met @ portland Airport. From Narita airport, it was another 8+ hr gruesome ride to Portland, Oregon. In the flight, i met with this black guy named Mike whom visited Tokyo for a vacation. He was all cool and fun to chat with. He was heading to Orlando, CA. haha and he complained that he had 12 hrs of transiting time @ Portland. haha. Poor guy that wanted to get a cheaper ticket.

I reached PDX, but Stefan was not around. ahh. Gave him a ring, and he was on the way. He brought me straight to the restaurant - Lucky Strike. On the way we grabbed Carls Junior -famous star and spicy chicken. He decided to close from 3pm-6pm, so we headed to multnomah falls, whereby we hiked through this valley of water, stumbled upon fallen trees. It was fun but the water was freezing cold. Pucker was there.. ha - Rita gave that shitzu mixed pomeranian dog to Stefan a year back, as a pressie. How sweet. We took pictures there, had ice cream there.. and headed back to the restaurant, whereby i helped out as a waiter. haha..
We headed to Hong Fat Low, where we had our beer, whiskey and my AMF. I literally passed out till the next afternoon (Portland time/15 hrs difference)
Sunday - I got up at 2.40pm( took a shower and we headed out to Sunnyside- Happy valley. Stefan's old house. First destination was to Some organic beerfeast, then we headed to the oysterbar, before returning to the restaurant. We headed to Ann's place at night, for our crabs and redwine. It was nice to meet George, Vannessa, not mentioning Rita, Stefan, Maggie, Ann, Thanh, Stefan's mum and Nikki(sis). I got back to Stefan's place and we smoked.. awwie.. Got stoned and passed out.

Monday - I got up at 12 after the "hang over" . Using the internet right now, and i'm heading out to Downtown to grab our lunch. Probably at sushiland so that i can find Daniel there... Shall update and upload the pictures when i have time.. I only spent like 5 mins typing this out. ha.. The days have been so hectic.. I hope everyone doesnt feel neglected.. haii~.. even my mum called me like 10 times..

FOR now . PEACE OUT> Misses SG :).

nan desu?

2009-06-21T04:05:00.003+08:00

So i got home not understanding why I felt weird and conscience.. If i was given a chance i would have killed that 2 dogs of the neighbour. i just had too much to drink, yet i'm not drunk, but something was stopping me. please don't ask me why. I just felt like fucking killing myself.

The draw back was so great when i wanted to punch that mofo. 3 times in a row, i never failed. and this time round i actually pushed him. i seldom push, but just go straight at the face.
Ken left with his tomodachi. It was just something i didn't like but i had to accept it... i cant' wait till next saturday, but i dont' want the Monday to come. I just fucking wanna kill myself. fuck this. Now i understand why Hubert is going through all this. I see why it is. Sobz.

okay. I'm sober. I can actually type quite well. Sentosa it is. i can't wait for saturday to come by... 19 hrs alone on the plane. Emo.. and it's funny coz i saw Charlene and Sheralyn out by the hotel when i left.. the first words killed me instantly, over n over again. I hopped on the cab, telling myself it's a dream. Adios.

Nan De?

2009-06-16T17:35:00.001+08:00

I didn’t know why, but I just decided the read her blog today. Somehow rather I’ve never really bothered until her trip with her bf to Tokyo. It was uploaded on facebook. After 5 years, things have been totally different. The last time that I saw this friend was 2 years ago during a secondary school class gathering. Anyways, his current bf happens to be my colleagues ocs mate. . Life is always revolving around the same circle.

Whatever it is, I wish everyone the best. I must say that I was born lucky, henceforth, I have parents that will stand by my side, not that the others don’t. It’s just that I was let’s say a little more fortunate to have a little more. In comparison, I’ll never be like those that ACE and CS dreamt of, maybe they will hit that target, but I don’t dream that big. I’ll be happy with a considerable size. I just don’t get why ppl are never contended with a better than average, but always seek for the best. Or you could say that I’m not good enough, but I love to aim for the 2nd, and not the first. It takes much lesser effort to aim for 2nd than the first.

Back to the point - she saved $1k every month to repay her loan for studies and set aside 150/ week for expenditure. I can never manage my expense in that way. I guess it’s a plan that I should follow. Given that 2 years ago, I could save 1k easily a month ,with the frequency of tuition that I was conducting.

I sat in the 20 degree freezer ( my lab), waiting for 6pm to come. A goal has to come this time. With the constant nag and the disappointment that I have brought to the family, friends, love ones and others.. I think I just have to decide and work towards that goal. I give myself 1 month to cancel all those vices, including my “gluttony” habits of eating gastronomically. 1 month to narrow down the path, afterall I have 6 more months before I turn ¼ century old (=

Afterall, I’m a Saggita whom likes to roam around freely and travel. Adaptations to a change in the lab isn’t that hard.

The muzukashi part will be the perseverance. At least I enjoyed to the fullest of my first ¼. The 2/4 will be time for hardwork. My hardship just started, what about yours?

Changes

2009-06-15T01:04:00.003+08:00

So i got this message from bin*. ouch*.. But oh well... i hope everything will be done by July when i'm back (=.
There's like so many things that I can't write here. So so much that i wanna say, but i don't know whom to tell. Maybe Stefan and Rita can hear me out when i'm in the states.

It's so like killing me. I realised that the change is coming up.. after my trip. I'm so afraid of the comfort now, and afraid that i can't adapt to changes. Geraldine spoke to me last week and told me that it will all be fine.. how comforting. Then i found that i finally came back to the bible after 10 yrs.
I'm transferring lab from my JYJ to SR. ha.. taiwanese boss to indian.. Well, I don't get to hear the chinese gossiping anymore, but now i do have the indians to accompany me. At least Noel is there to make my day. This time round, it's going to be hectic.

For the past one week. I've hung out with Ace all the time? We watched movies. ha. it was hilarious esp the step brother. I got the whole season of 24 from him as well. That will keep me busy for a while. I realised that i've been clubbing non-stop. I did not find the reason to club until now. maybe alcohol makes ppl free.

I had frolick like for four times this week? with Cs, kexin,Ace.. then with my colleagues..

Ace and I wanted to visit the fusionpolis's fitness first today since he had the membership and could sign 1 in, but we ended up not going in, because of the time constrain and coz he had to make an appointment in order for us to get in. So B.S.

Ended up running around holland village, leedon park and back to his place; duration - 1hr. Cool. at least i hit my quota for this week.

Think my brain is going to explode after so many things are happening.. the drinks, the decisions, PR, study, family, future.. argh. okay. I've just popped the 8th panadol. okay i took double dosage of the extra strength. It's going to hurt my liver again.

I was just so overwhelming.. that i couldn't fathom why. someone help me.

It happened like this all the time

2009-05-03T20:18:00.003+08:00

It was always like this. i had my nightmare and boom the next thing was a bad thing.

It was just gone like that.. This time round i'm too tired to beg for anything. Everything was always not according to the expectation. I know other factors played a part, but it was just always not to the part i expected.

I felt so lonely.

The weird thing is that the light worked on the original switch but not at the other place. Why? Now i'm using it for my own studies. all alone :(.

I used to be always so insensitive, but this time I observed that the "stays longer" is no longer around, just somehow rather i know my answer to everything.

fitche dische.

2009-04-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

And so.. The more i thought of it. The more pissed off i got. This is even happening after my dinner. Hence forth, fuck it. i'm not bothered anymore. Not even a single apology. Piece of shit.

I Don't understand

2009-04-30T16:22:00.007+08:00

Bleah~. My mum's friend from NEW york was here and here's a pic of her pretty mixed blood daughter:

Drinks @ zouk Friday 24th April 09

Zouk Wed -22nd of April

Zouk wed - 29 April 09 ( free drinks from Sol, weida and some random drunk girls. ha not the first time we're getting free drinks from random ppl)

Sometimes in life, I don't understand why people love to leech on you.

Good friends don't pay you upfront, they are not clean with Moolas. For instance, if they owe you 1.50, they rather pay you $1. ROUND DOWN? wtf. you learnt Maths right?

$13.50/2 =? 6.75. Oh that barcardi breezer, I'll pay you $6. HELLO! I didn't treat you that shit.

Anyways, Kelvin and Desmond went with me to zouk last night. We saw Weida too(BMT friend, Pri school friend of shining and CS). He was there to celebrate his friend T.T from HongKong.

As usual fuckers are all around, and i have to shove my bloody arm against their back before they start to notice my presence.

Desmond and I were craving for the SOL beer that tasted cheapo. The only reason why we got it, was because it was free if you do a airspray temporary tattoo. We approached the Sol girls and they took a picture with us featuring our airbrushed "tattoo".

I don't understand why people will take supershots with random ppl. It was hurting to see them. and maybe the ex-bf? it was never meant to be a Invasion of Privacy...

I never understand why things are said and looked forward for, but it ends up being melted. Priority comes into play, and definitely this is badly planned, just like how i phailed. sad*

I shall drain my life away now~. I gave up all hopes. let the justice pick up with ya.

Acquaintance?

2009-03-13T10:57:00.002+08:00

On Wednesday, it was kinda of fun trip to Zouk. Unfortunately, Mel, star, Kel & JM can't make it with their pussy reasons. Kelvin hasn't been to work for the past 2 weeks on thursday. The rest had to do their project the next morning at 8.30am.

I have to work at 8.30 too and get up at 7. Fortunately, Irvin was free and we decided to head down for some graveyards. We had our free chop and decided to head down to Great World for a movie. My bloody Valentine's-3D, except that it was in 2D. The bloody title on the GV's website makes it so misleading. Then again, I recalled that only Grand Cathay and Vivocity has that 3D thingy.

IT was a grumsome and gore movie with cheesy dialogues. But the movie had the pickaxe that went swinging from all directions. You get the killings from the throat, eyes etc.. There was a midget in the movie too. lol. It was a shame that we didn't get a chance to watch the 3D version of it. By the end of the 100mins, we kinda felt like puking.

we headed back to Winebar for a quick "downing". As usual, the phuture entry is sold out. there was a huge crowd and my favourite sausage fest party thingy.. I walked into Winebar and saw Carine and Sarah. there's something about the acquaintance thingy..

If you know someone through a friend and had some light conversation, the person will remember you for 2-3 years(you must have facebook, ha so that the updates will make them remember you). This is when you establish the relationship called friends.

Basically acquaintance --> friends.

But if you all stop talking to eachother for like a few months, it goes back to acquaintance.

This is that kinda annoying feeling, whereby the person hestitates to even say hi. We only had a exchange of wave. The strange thing is that sarah doesn't even budge. Oh well, that's Ace kinda friend. Pui. Then i saw Veronica.. but that's my primary school friend. The cool thing was to see Daniel. haha. That big guy really looks cool and handsome right now. But he mentioned that he's gf and mum has been complaining about his late night outings. haha

It's Friday today. TGIF and Thank god that my dearie sent me to work and is fetching me home later :). I'll be having a lunch buffet @ carousel with my lab members later to boost my weight (=

Taiwan trip~ ahh in about 3 weeks time.. Ryan can't make it for this Sunday. Henceforth, he might change his tickets to join Ace and I for the trip, instead of going with Daz and Ix :).

SHIT

2009-03-05T23:38:00.002+08:00

I see life as shit. it's so shitty that i have to pretend that i'm living. it ain't getting any more important. i see too much shit everyday that i wanna give those ppl some shit. Nevertheless, kind souls are out there. Tired of all these decisions. Till the day it comes, i'll just let out my shit.

3 days of memorable incamp training.

There's a plan to make everything work

2009-01-12T14:16:00.002+08:00

Here's the deal. No more Procrastination etc.. I haven't been blogging, writing for so long that i doubt i can even write simple essay with proper english sentences. The fact that gambling has been a great problem since it was introduced to me, had taken a great deal of my life away. Time has always been wasted on it and I vowed never to touch it, at least for the near future.

Here are my New Year Resolution:
1) Not to Gamble for 1 year which are other than leisure( Not any amounts >50 and regularity of not more than that amount in 1 week)
2) To consume only 1 x meal during my lunch and not > 1 x fastfood every 2 weeks.
3) To crash course myself in studying for MCAT in a gradual but steady manner
4) To run 5km at least once per week and get gold for this year's IPPT.
5) To control my temper when it's deemed to be, and punish those that deserves it.

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Time passed, and it's another year gone.. Recently, Prison break, Dota, Call of Duty 5 has been part and parcel of my life. Binge drinking and heavy gambling has been gradually diminishing. Hope that continues in that way.

Cab Drivers

2008-11-25T10:10:00.002+08:00

To stereotype in generally is definitely not a good thing to have. But i will have to say that there are really some "qwerty" cab drivers out there.
SH9325L- the fucker who highbeamed me on saturday on TPE near old tampines road for fucking no reason.[ I just wanted to drive my gf's brother back home from Pasir Ris after his tiresome BMT training.] In retaliation, i beamed him back for only half the duration that he beamed me. As i approach my exit from the freeway, he too got out from the same place, and abruptly changed into my lane, causing me to install a emergency break which could have resulted in a accident.

To my amusement, he carried a passenger which was inferred from the "hired" signal from his cab. Driving a cab is most probably his ricebowl. For some, i call it retirement job, for others i call it opportunity. FOr him i'll call it a road bully pleasure.

To start, it wasn't even a malicious act from me, but a great threat from him throughout the journey. Giving him the benefit of doubt, I thought it may be a genuine mistake, but he followed me when i changed lane to avoid his fucking highbeam. When i decelerated my speed to observe his car plate license, he did it too. He was apparently guilty for his actions.

Dear called into comfort, i got home around 10.30pm to lodge a complain. Knowing that i may not get anything done; since no witnesses could provide any evidence, I called up again on Monday to file in another case. I told them that i didnt' any stern warning and whatsoever demerit points. I wanted to talk to him personally. yeah yeah~ blah blah, we have to investigate into the matter and be assured that we will get back to you asap. ya.. investigate what shit. from your gps? there's nothing to investigate. As if, the cab driver will admit into his fault. PCB.

2nd great part of my life- i'm in financial crisis still.

3rd great part of my life- my lab partner is a biatch. totally. Egoistic? To say, i call it super duper nothing to do. Come to work on routine. Can be late. Doesn't join us for lunch which i do not know the reason. Talks to a bastard called Jeremy whom most of us condemns. Seriously, I dont' really care what she does, but for her to leave asap since she draws a salary to is way above me because she happened to have something called honours and i don't. Life is unfair and i will always question that. She genuinely works for like ~1hr a day,whereby the job could be done with only half the time given. I've nothing to say but that my boss is blind.

Life is always about bitching. My life is about bitching. Daniel will always agree. Good things don't etch into my mind, but the bad ones keeps coming.

Ah.. I got my COD5 saturday, whereby it's full of conflicts. I finally resolved it by updating my sound and graphic cards drivers to the latest version. Apparently, it has conflicts with many stuff. Bleah, the previous installation COD4 had much better graphics and game play, but this is about war, which gave a greater depth to the whole game. Generally, I enjoyed the game (=. Shall start posting pictures up once i get home.

Drinking has always been fun for me that i had been binge drinking for the past few months with Kelvin. To the extend that Nicholas had "vividly" promised me a zouk membership next year. Meanwhile, i will sustain with my citibank credit card which guarantees me a free entry so that i can spend on drinks lavishly.

The gaming life + reflections

2008-10-02T09:14:00.005+08:00

I realised that I have not been doing much everynight and merely just playing Dota and Call of duty 4. lol... It was really fun but it gets to the points whereby you simply "laz" around and stare at the computer for the whole day. Intermittently, i do look at my Tv which is only about 70 degrees to my left where i'm sitting. Comfortably in the seat that my dear bought for me during one of the trips to IKEA, i live my life in a fantasy world. ha.. With the addiction to gambling, I am still hooked to watching sports. (nono, not F1, because it's some boring sports whereby you turn 60 laps and sweat it out. Neither will i like the looks of those egoistic european drivers nor the sore loser comment made by Ferrari group)

Then i realised that my favourite hobby- watching movie was not done for the past few weeks.

If ya reading the above 2 paragraphs, they were written at least 3weeks ago and saved my draft. Yes i wrote them during my working hours. I had to keep alternate tabbing out of my blog in order to lab members from thinking that i am slacking. Am I? Yes i was only during that 10 mins.

Life has not been easy for me since my last lab member left, in fact it sucks because the predecessor is not as "wonderful" as i have expected. I don't wanna comment more about her other than 3 phrased words: Self-centered. Higher Pay. Lower work volume.

Right now I am just on the 2nd floor writting this blog entry because I do not cherish my work. yeah. nothing much is done because my research work is on stall. Things cannot progress. Neither is my incompetitive boss bothered about my work. I shall slack and hopefully the only colleague that is reading this blog is Dazmond. But for whatsoever i care not, i do not care. ya?

Life is weird. People are adventurous yet afraid. I was in the club last friday with Kelvin and Shining. We had red wine, beer, Martini bianco and hot and sticky. It was fun till the dance floor. Guys will always without fail flock to girls. I was just staring blankly and how guys will go all the way to caress the girls. The funny thing is that the girls does not even know what the guy looks like. The guys push with their testosterone levels and are always ready to battle with their adrenaline pumps.

The stocks market and the world economy has not been good for the past months. Retrenchment may occur? i don't really care. My parents lost a couple of 6 digits. I lost 5 digit from my investment.

Chalet with my colleagues is on this friday at Costa sands. It's like a weekend off for me. I wonder how long i can last at this work place before i move on from the thrash.

Sunday was a impromptu visit to Far East with Ace. I had my last tattoo in 2006 feb 11th. 2008 19th OCt marks another day whereby a twice as big one is carved on my back. It's more painful and much more antagonising. I liked it. I believe those around me will not enjoy it. But for as long as i can, i will try to hide it. (=

People always say that bloggers complain too much. Like i say it's my life, and i prefer to keep it this way.

Random pics explains it.

2008-09-27T21:35:00.007+08:00

Dear Buddy sleeping so soundly. Was a saturday night drinking session. He passed out coz of tiredness. I rather call it - avoidance.
Some lunch random picture of Ryan.
Left(noel), Right(veron). Happy pics during the 10km Nike Run

Ruth's Birthday- so Glam. ha
Ix wee- the hunk. ha.. Quite a fit guy from my work place
My postdoc Dr Qiu. She's so happy during IMCB symposium
Dr Semil- Young Cambridge scholar with a party mind. ha.. American with indian blood.
of course. my won dear dear during a Cafe Cartel Dinner session.

party
Qimei's farewell at one of the Buffet restaurants somewhere in Chinatown
WQS- Morpholino screening group.

Lab Members. Top (William, Xuehui, Shangwei, Samuel, Me) all phD holders except me
Bottom- Liqing, ChiawHwee, Qimei, Derryn.

Paintball Session

Clubbing session in Aug

Family
Singapore airport to Thailand in Jan

TO Shanghai- Jan 08
My apartment in Shanghai

US trip 07 - Jan in Canada

Agnes- ex IMCBian.
Augustine. haha..
Ruth's birthday.

My Dear GF

2008-09-21T15:28:00.002+08:00

I wanna thank my gf for being bitchy at me at times.. but of course being my supportive counterpart most of the times. She gives me the lift to my tuition, sends me home etc.. Not forgetting that i do that too!. She sends me to work on Sundays (= haha. Accompanies

me when i feel so lonely. Wrote a nice card for me :). Bought me facial cream, Wrote me a card, bought me a perfume. haha and many other things.. My shaver too!.. But i can't even recall the last item that i've bought for her. I just got too lazy to start blogging. But Thanks dear :).

Now that her bro Zhiyu is in Army, she'll have no one to argue with (=.

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2008-09-21T15:00:00.003+08:00

20th September - Tuition for the sec 1 and Pri 5 girls. They are simply hard to teach man... Argh puking blood all over. Night time was reserved for my new fanatics for Dota that i just started playing. oh well, it's a way to socialize with my colleagues. It's kinda fun to play with them..
So far we have:
1) Messyhair
2) Smang
3) Wws
4) Wizard
5) Myself
6) Auggy?
7) Jun
8) Noel
9)Ix
Last night was a chill out session with Zhirong and Ace. We had supper at Chomp Chomp followed by drinking session over at my place with the screening of Saw IV & Superbad. I passed out around 4am.. and they slept around 5. (=
Over the time... My Colleagues + Excolleagues over at IMCB had been hanging out quite a bit... such as
Clubbing Sessions
Running session at workplace
x-periment outreach for Science Centre @ marina Square
Running events such as Milk Run, Nike Run, Stand chart run, AHM etc..
Lunch Gathering, Farewell parties etc..
Here's some of the random pics:

Almost dying/

2008-09-19T01:47:00.003+08:00

Hmm AFtermath... I haven't updated my blog for such a long time. But I really appreciate having my dear gf during these few months. She's been a great pillar of support for me (= Shall update this almost dead blog by this weekend (=

Movies?

2008-07-27T15:43:00.002+08:00

Looking at the entry for the past 2 yrs or so. I've watched like 84 Movies? Hmm.. at least about 70-75 is with Dear. I once said that it will be nice if i can marry someone whom i've watched 100 movies with. haha..

I haven't been really updating my blog. Was done with some "rain" fever last thursday night henceforth didn't go to work on friday. Was playing Mahjong on friday night + saturday night. Profit on fri and losses on Sat. :). What's more important is that I've got this singapore pools account called poolzconnect that I'm so addicted too. Although i know that it can never be used for earning money.. But the thrill is there.. ahh..

I got this pamphlet from Singapore pools outlet titled When Gambling becomes a problem. What are the signs of problem gambling?:
1) Gambling longer than intended
2) Gambling until the last dollar is spent
3) Thoughts of gambling losses causes stress
4) using income or savings to gamble while letting bills go unpaid
5) repeated but unsuccessful attempts to give up or control gambling
6) borrowing money to finance one's gambling needs

Well.. So far i've achieved 1,2,3,5. For no4. I do not let my bills go upaid. For 6, it's not a problem. I bet within limits.

Score: 4.5/6 - Verdict: I'm a addicted Gambler.

Three stages of Gambling Addiction:
Winning phase
Losing phase
Desperation phase

since Euro cup. I started off with winning phase for the first day and after 2 weeks- it became losing phase and towards the end of euro cup it became desperation phase. henceforth, i've decided to bet with Singapore pools, because it limits my gambling range + games. Which indeed allows me to control it somehow on the number of games. *You can only bet international,korean,japanese D1, EPL, UEFA, Friendlies and S-league from Singapore pools.

i've got the platinum poolzconnect account whereby it's a direct deduction from your bank. You can buy toto and 4d from calling in too. How cool!.

Was playing paintball last saturday morning with my colleagues.. haha but i'm too lazy to post the pictures now. We were all wearing No4s. lol except Aaron.
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Interesting facts that i didnt know:
Shaving does not make your hair grow back faster and coarser. hair that is shaved is dead and shaving has no effect on the speed of regrowth. The new growth may appear darker since it has not bee exposed to the sun or chemicals for very long. also, it may seem coarser since the ends have not bee tapered by wear and there. SWEET. :)

Dear Dear is going to bangkok next week. :(

It's funny when you see your friend at the weirdest place of all. I saw my BMT friend, weijun days later at Alexandra road when he tried to sell insurance to me via the phone. I've not seen him since 3.5 years ago.

I saw Daniel at the IT show and serangoon gardens for supper but never did i go out with him on a proper occasion other than clubbing. lol

I saw this OCS friend in Thailand in one of the corners of a shopping street and another time on the MRT after work... It's just so weird.

Veron's Leaving trip + 2 things to bitch about

2008-06-26T21:49:00.004+08:00

Kuriya Meal last friday at Great World City. This is the restaurant that i've walked around outside for umpteen times. yet i do not want to walk in to get chopped. We finally decided to eat there.. It costed me a bomb.

We went clubbing after that with Ryan, Ix,Veron,Augustine, JianFeng,Me,Ashley,Noel.. (without Ruth, Qimei, Rayner, Wilson & Dazmond). Somehow rather i find that our level 8 lab biologist got quite close together. Well Ryan's a future post doc :). My first permanent job and i've such a lovely environment to work other than those big foul mouth PRCs.. i'll love this place. But i need a higher paying job.. will move on soon.

*Someone called Peter annoys me everyday at work. It's his looks or actions? i cant' stand it. argh... I'm biased against.. So are the rest.. bleahz

*Bin- ya.. The one whom brought me to club.. Once bitten, twice shy.. She's one that really can't keep hold her promises nor $. Borrowed from me.. I trusted her just one more time.. It takes like 1 month to clear off 1/3 of what she owed. i don't understand why. Keeps telling me excuses and deadlines after one another.. What a big liar. Seriously speaking.. I want my $ back this time. I'm so freaking pissed.. don't understand why such person exist.. argh.

Never expect to borrow $ from me again. She aint' my friend. pui.

Update x 2- clubbing and shopping 14th June

2008-06-15T15:18:00.008+08:00

Jesus Christ pictures downloaded from Tourmaline's Blog. Too gone and drunk and fat.

[14th June- PC Show] It was meant for Dear, whom wanted to purchase the Canon Ix80? Some 8 mega pixel camera. :). It cost 385 from her friend, but she will get 1 x 4GB SD card instead of 2 x 4GB SD at the PC show which is selling at $429. We decided to get it from her friend. We saw Daniel Wuu at the show as well. what a coincidence!

I found the samsung Y2-P2 4GB player at a price of $299 with additional gadgets like free bluetooth headset from Samsung. Overall, i think it's better than ipod nano with a good battery life and a nice touch screen. The major setback for not getting that player is coz of the stupid piracy feature that itune has. i.e you can't transfer songs directly from your ipod into any other files. I had to literally transfer songs from other ppl's ipod into mine by showing the hidden folders and changing the names of the scrabbled files manually. For instance, if ya song is Danity kane- Damage, it will become XWLX. Upon extraction, you will have to listen to it and change the file name back. oh whatever.Zhixiang- Huilin's younger brother bought it as well :)

The bluetooth accessories and the box plus player:

The player with the lousy leather casing:

The player: white.

[14th June- Adidas ] After getting up in the morning, I drove down to Suntec city with the accompany of Kaymond, GuangWei and dear. The parkinglot was fully parked.. It was aweful that we had to waste 30 mins of our time in the parking lot trying to find a space. Fortunately, Guang wei mentioned that Conrad hotel had ample of parking space that ppl won't realize.

We went to adidas and had a 30% discount + additional 30% discount(staff price- thanks to Kaymond's friend). We visited 3 adidas shop and i purchased 2 street wear shoes and 1 running shoes :). Guang wei bought a Adizero LT for 90. Dear bought an Austria jacket for 106. Dear bought a shoulder bag for 42 for his brother zhixang. Zhixiang bought another adidas bag for his gf for 42. Kaymond bought a liverpool jersey for Kenneth for 35.

This is my SuperStar Vulc - original price after 30% is 85.40. After staff discount = $60. It was the last pair, size 12.

The Decade Low - afte 30% discount is 172. After staff discount=$121.

The adizero CS at 113.40 after discount and after staff discount = $80 odd.

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Updates X 1

2008-06-15T14:57:00.005+08:00

It was awesome that Germany lost to Croatia 0-2. I bought Croatia($50 to get back $650) and Portugal(Returns 325) to win the Euro 2008 Championship. ha.. I see Holland as the most suitable Candidate at the moment with their top notch delivery of goals and passes.

My Winning ticket for Spain 4-1. :)

[Foodies] Was at Sakae Teppanyaki with Dear last friday 6th Jun.

Here's the compliment Salad:

My all time favourite at Burger King's. Triple mushroom Swiss. haha. $1.10 for additional chicken or beef patty.

Shepherd's pie for $3.50 at Baker's boy in Biopolis (=. Comes with a compliment salad to neutralize the fatty acids from the beef and potato.

[13th June] Whee~. Last friday, our colleagues went to botak jones in clementi for some fish n chips and cajun chicken. Yum yum. Ix and I drove there. It was nice that we had 2 cars. The lunch is in celebration of Veron leaving IMCB (=. Her last day will be next friday, hence we will be heading to brewerkz for some mini celebration.

[11th June]Visited Mambo and phuture last wed (11th June) which happens to be Ashley's birthday with Ix, Semil, Noel, Veron, Ryan, Agnes. Well of course, i got to see my gf, weiling and tourmaline there. I was dead gone that night and talking gibberish.

Semil, Noel and I had some meeting for our Company's DnD on 1st of August at Wine and water. We had 2 glasses of cabernet Sauvigon while Noel had a Merlot with some compliments.

What's with the.

2008-05-13T00:53:00.003+08:00

I had been having some Mahjong sessions with my dear and her 2SY friends. seems fun but just that my exams study periods are being compromised*. But life is short, i gotta enjoy. It's just way too tiring to study after a whole long day of research + running regime.

I takes lots of discipline to achieve what it takes. We shall see how the progress goes.

I'm kinda irritated by how some China Chinese can get... They have foul mouth and body odour. Well, that particular one. Sometimes it gets me so annoyed. Moreoever, the additional population of them to our country is a threat to both our smart alexs + our fathers. LOL. KNow why i mention that? Coz there are so many whores around to serve the needs of the desperates.

My dear will be getting her Honda Jazz this weekend. That will be nice for her :). i was chatting with my dad, and he'll get me a car, it all depends if i'm still in this snit. If i'm outta this shit hole, i rather do it.

Had a great drinking session with daniel and kelvin last friday over at phuture. It had been a month. I had been clubbing at least once a week. Downing a few cocktails of hard liquor and with starters like Tiger Beer. My weight have also increased dramatically, due to the 2 servings lunch consumptions and buffets that i have had.

I've spent approximately 300-400 on clothings from AE, my favorite brand. 20% discount + free shipping over to VPOST USA. Which, subsequent payment has to be made to Vpost before they will deliver.

I'm utterly disappointed with the word: TRUST. Somehow rather, a dog never stops eating SHIT. Seriously, but i took my mind off, and i thought that after 12 years of friendship, things could have changed. Maybe i'm just overreacting, but i distaste the fact that someone has promised to return a sum of $ within a period and has failed to do so. I have given up hope over money issues. I always say that it's the last time, but i guess my kind conscious have failed me. I hope the angel will not come to me. Let the devil tell me how "entropiest" this world has became.

I am.. i am mentally prepared for a chaos when the oil supplies deplete. hail you terrorists...

A month after my pay increment, i'm still disappointed that my institution has underpaid me. I read that average good students from SMU are drawing salary of $3.5k per month. Ahh how cool. That's what my honours Students colleagues are drawing. Fuck that. I quit. not for now. The government is just drawing some of the rest back to academical papers. I'm getting out of this shit.

Lots of bitching.. happy or not. Welcome to the reality. Things ain't the same perspective that i used to believe in.

People tell me that they sell tissue for a living, I tell them to fuck off.
People cut my queue, i kick their legs.
People that hinders my life, ha... needless to say.

stomp

2008-05-04T12:30:00.002+08:00

Have you ever heard of the this webby called stomp.com? I just realized how lousy the interface of the website is. For instance, if you post a comment on the webpage and you wait for a few days. People will post comments that are irrelevant... and if you really want to browse through a comment page such as the 22nd page of the 23. you will have to click 22 times of that ">" button and allow it to load 22 times.

The good thing is that there are not really any moderators about the content.. it's a freedom of speech, just don't use vulgarities. i find it hilarious and i believe that most of the comments are made by ignorant infidels..

For example: what Bugs me

NoMoreNoMore said on 03 ??, 2008
I THINK THE STUPID FROG IS MORE OF A VANDALISM!
ProudOzzy said on 02 ??, 2008
aww poor person dont worry you can cry on my shoulder lol
DestroyerWing said on 01 ??, 2008
the person who did this must be a fan of hello kitty.
kaerr_23 said on 01 ??, 2008
maybe the person vomit is acidic?
kohanson said on 01 ??, 2008
The person who did this must have did it out of jealousy as your car is nicer than his.

So this Car owner had her car vandalized by someone. those peepz out there will give ridiculous yet ludicrous comments like: maybe the person vomit acidic.. they will predict the hilarious stories.. haha.. this is also the contradicting reason why i always return to read these comments.

life sucks and it still does. it's sometimes enjoyable. but who gives a fuck. Care for yourself. Fuck the rest. - My philo.

Remunerations

2008-04-17T16:44:00.004+08:00

From XIAO HONG LO- spinach Tofu
Cereal Prawns That jap rest in P.S beside Aijensen

Clementi Half BBQ Chicken - from tender cute
Aston's Express @ Serangood Gardens - Hickory BBQ Chicken with potato salad + fries
Well - trays and trays of drinks with bin on 9th of April + Stanford tyres pals
Shimesoba? from paragon with CS, Zhirong, Huiling and Huilin

Last friday was a dissapointment. A total trashed day. I had a increment of 3%. 2nd upper and 1st class honours students are getting an increment of about 20%. Well. If you look at the percentage. It's not that much. But if you're looking at the amount. It's a difference of 1000. Tell me about the fairness in the world. Poly grads are 1.4k away from him. The difference is just so vast and unjust. Talking about hardworking and all the performance, it's just tyranny.

Turning point whereby I have to choose between phD or medical school if i can get into any. My boss told me about the plans... So i'll just have to choose to be a poor Postdoc if i do get approved by the panel, switch my working field or get to study medicine. Either way, we shall know it by end of this year.

Went to club with Kelvin, Ken last night. It was a 3 combi night- Ak47, lambourgini, Graveyard. Ken got totally smashed. haha...

Colleagues

2008-04-08T21:16:00.003+08:00

Your life is full of surprises. Nice girlfriend, Money ain't a worry. Friends that adds colors to your life. Your colleagues are nice... .. BUT... You have small bunch of XIAO REN( i call it small people) that steps into your life and annoys you. People that comes to your blog and tell you who you are, when that she is of nobody. I don't dispise ugly nor poor people. Everyone is pretty by default, but it's only the degree. It's not a crime to be poor. But it's of a insult when you try to act snoobish.

One snoobish person who provokes you... and another EQ worth of 0, whom takes advantage of any opportunity that she can. I can't name the race nor person. It's sad about the freedom of speech in this world. My blog can never directly aim at people that i dislike, things that i wanna say. It can only be made up of fragmented sentences that sounds off things that i do not like. I had enough of people that are living in a fake world. I call it the PRETENDERS. What's with the phony reaction. You're trying to act highly of yourself?.

Somewhat, you walk pass people that you see everyday, Eyes between can't communicate.

You do someone a favour, yet you get shot right at your face. Do you deserve it?

You try your best to work, but you're not appreciated, is it worth it? As my ex-colleague quoted: Do not do over what you're paid for.

It will only raise rage among people. Apart from all these assholes... Life is somewhat impeccably nice.

Time is crucial. I wish i had time to return. Somehow i started to ponder what the world is like when i'm listening to Empty streets by late night alumni that Hubert have supplied me.

I have never been a good writer. Just some writings for my own reference in the near future. Once again, Life is never fair, but GOd is. Who's your god?

I was woken up by some stranger today on the bus at the busstop that i was supposed to alight. To my surprise, that random girl that i don't even know actually recognises or intuitively thinks that i should alight at that bus stop. It's some courage to wake someone up like that. I~ thought. Thx. but she disappeared into the thin air after the Centros building.

3 weeks of ICT

2008-03-30T18:27:00.002+08:00

It's finally over. I'm tanned. I fitter. I've learnt more. It was no doubt one of the most tiring and most responsible job i have undertaken. No one will ever understand the pain I've gone through unless you were with me in the field. Both mentally and physically exhausted. I'm happy.

I'm happy that something got better on friday. It was tourmaline's advanced birthday party celebration.
Saturday - i was with aaron just drinking off at double o.
Study regime will be coming back. Sit tight.
Tuesday - Ken's back for good. At least for now. ahhh

pretentious

2008-02-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

1)Dawn Yeo is really a pretentious bitch that is trying to attract attention. Try harder. Plastic.

2) What's with Fedex? I've sent in my AVA approval code for a shipment of transgenic fishline to be imported to My laboratory for research purposely. Apparently, they didn't really do anything about it and just sent a mail to notify us that clearance was delayed.

Great. I had to call up the Custom clearance from Fedex. Her name was Siti. She was such a bitch... Giving me attitude... I wrote a complain in. Good to hear that my voice call was actually monitored/recorded. Douche Bag. In life, you just can't stop complaining, because life is beautiful but yet not perfect.

3)Mentioning about the stranger that bitched on my blog.Bewildered. Nice try but oh well, i lost the bet about you not tagging on my blog. darn it.

4) The 2.4km trial run today was a success yet failure. There was rain, but i insisted and persuaded Dazmond to run with me, and great we managed to complete 6 rounds in a unexpected timing.

5) studying is always a pain in the ass, especially if your work deals with studies. Brain totally saturated with the day work and seminar. Evening time is for my self-study. But learning is always fun. You look at batches of outreach students walking into the building trying to learn something out of it. I was in the same elevator this morning, while these group of boys were quizzing each other about what they've learnt from the experiments that they have done here. Poly and Honours student attachment students that want to get their certs in no time.

6) Dear bought me Callofduty4 for valentine's. it was actually atrocious.. ha but well i spent like 30-40 hrs on it so far. I handed her a $50 note for her bags(3 to be precise). Not a very wonderful gift, but i gave her a wonderful advice on not buying the flowery print bag in Far East. We had a sushi tei dinner over at serangoon gardens too. Bonus the queue was long, and we had to wait for an hour and read the magazine that we bought while waiting for the dinner. Cleo and 8 days. Daniel was on Cleo. haha.. Top50 most eligible Bachelor. Cool aint it?

7) Reservist is in approximately 9 day's time. I'll have to pack them this week. Physically prepared, but not mentally. Pioneer PC. hmmm.. 5 days of mission fieldcamp during the final week's grandslam plus 3 days of livefiring. Not the mention about the GOod Friday that is not really good afterall. Cheers.

P.S. If you're that douche bag that is still reading my blog... ha.. you're such a loser.

It hurts me when people don't take things seriously

2008-02-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

It was just so simple. I was harsh.. but people won't listen. It was stupid.. yes but i had enough of blatant complains... and some stranger dares come to my blog and start telling me how stupid i am. Grow up, get constructive criticisms, and do your homework before you start firing at people. Even her own arsenal was not well equipped. Note that i call it a her, coz it's either bitch or wuss that can't even describe things properly.

For correlationship, gambling and drinking is not bad. It's for entertainment. Even the msot noble people does it. Don't tell me that your monk or priest dont' drink, that's their own freaking problem. I'm not religious. Screw you.

Student Outreach programme, Thailand trip, Tony Romas, Shin Kushiya, Mind's Cafe, Park Royal Hotel with 2SY Pictures

2008-02-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

nice Big Prawns. Those huge pincers??

Mind's Cafe outing w/ Colleages - Japanese food at a not so japanese restaurant in Shaw Centre
chocolate Shake
Carbonara
Brownie's @ Mind's cafe - Purvis street
Sashimi buffet @ Park Royal hotel

Tony Romas half slab of ribs + 6 oz steak combo
Shin Kushiya

Shin- Kushiya

Opp BIG C- Thailand

Complimentary Bread spread with garlic
Tony Roma's Caesar Salad

I murdered a life today

2008-01-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

Without much hestitation, I carried out an impromptu move;l flung the 4 month old victim out of the window. I told it to look for veageance in it's next life.
Don't ask what it is, and it's pretty much dead now. Moral of the story: Don't be a bully. you'll regret.

I am pretty much having a fast time through this Rat year. 4th - 8th january was the thailand trip, whereby i was stopped at the singapore customs for possession of brass knuckle, baton and a switch blade knife. They are meant to be souvenirs and for self-protection. The police portray it as "gangsterism". Don't be surprised if you can't bring walkie talkie, dildo and handcuffs into our country. it's really a "fine" country.

I'm tired to upload any pictures.. I was in Shanghai during the blitzERing cold winter.. just a mere 32 fahrenheit or so. 12th -15th January.

i registered for my examinations for the 27th of May. It now cost lesser since Us dollar plummeted. Probably around $400? i better work hard.

Sitting on my favourite chair( a gift from dear from Ikea)... i brainstormed... while studying & listening to jay chou's album.. soothing.. it is...

Things I cannot live without apart from money:
1) Girls & accompany
2) Good Computer with internet access
3)Camera phone
4) Mp3 player
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Birthday Gifts + X mas Gifts.

2008-01-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

from ken
from ken
from ken :)

spaghetti's
from ken {_
from ken :)

yum yum. topless 5
Swensons :)
Movie - I am Legend

Went to eat at this restaurant the saturday before x=-mas week with Guangwei they all

X-mas eve at vivo

Dinner with Jian li, Zhirong, CheySeng, Huiling, Huilin @ Vivo 24/12/07

i received a buffet dinner from my parents in Swiss o tel.

A birthday cake from my fellow good friends.

Multiple gifts from Ken(Best friend), the best part. he's back to Singapore. well of course primarily for his girlfriend :)

A Mug from Augustine that says Enjoy. with a boob on it. :)

Last but not least a belt, wallet, boxes & a pencil from my dear.

It was really a so so holiday. I spent 3 of my days playing mahjong. Most of the nights were spent at home playing games, watching tv, sleeping, movies online as well as eating. i have spent so much of my time & money for dining. That i'm going to relinquish that!.

My new year resolutions for now:

Admission to med school

Girlfriend

Hope that assholes will dissappear. Money leechers, flamers and fucking eye starers.

A pay raise

Eat lesser

tattoo?

friends.

creativity.

episodic memory. I possess good semantic & implicit memory.

Sometimes, you feel so bored with life, then you think of the interesting things. My buddy ken said somethings that are so true. It's really great to have him back, although he'll be gone for a long time. (till april?). Miss the King of fighters time... too bad we meet just like 10 times a year. So many things happened in 2007....

I was waiting for my turn to withdraw cash while i overheard this 2 girls chatting that they have less than $180 for the rest of the month. It's pathetic... to be poor. we are so poor... inequality.. argh.

Birthday :)

2007-12-22T16:34:00.000+08:00

market place - raffles hotel.

The wallet
The .9mm pencil :)
The box.

I forgot to thank my dear for giving my birthday wishes :). Thank you dear :). Love ya (=. I got my wallet, belt, special pencil and 2 boxes for x mas present :).

P.S The recent mishap that happened in phuture toilet is fun. 2 punches + some spit on someone was way too cool. vent the anger on me someone.

if you people have a bit more $ to spend, spend 1k to have your ancestry and gene tested. go to http://www.23andme.com/. You will be able to analyze fun facts about your DNA. I read it from science magazine 21st dec issue. SNPs ( single nucleotide polymorphisms) are charted earlier this year, so that we can have a track down of genes that are of complex disease. Be happy that you're not paying 300k to 1million to have all your 3 billion base pairs tested. Your identity and personal privacy will be kept. Visit the webbie :).

December aint a good month this year :(

2007-12-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

hey. I'm sorry.
(= love of my life

Hey it's Red INDIAN POPCORN
New watch :)
Dear's New watch
IKOI
NEW BUS with a cool seat-belted seat :)

Bangkok & Shanghai

2007-11-30T09:24:00.000+08:00

Haven't been studying for a month after i took a hiatus from giving tuition. I have decided not to waste my time dedicating my life to teaching primary school kiddos. In 2 weeks time, i will turn 23.

Shall be taking my exams for MCAt again targeted to be in april which means i have 5 months left. But I have Reservist as Pioneer PC from 10th March to 29th march.

Will be in Bangkok from 4th to 9th jan with my dear :). then 12th- 15 th of Jan in Shanghai in my apartment. Whee~. Holidays.

*People that whistles ought to be shot*

Gambling*

2007-11-26T09:53:00.000+08:00

Prior to mentioning this "let out". I just wanna say that last friday night out with my army sispec mate XingHe(star) was such an enjoyable night. We drank some of the most potent drinks - Vodka Ribena from Double O. haha.. We puked out and it was fresh bright Red with the Bah Ku Teh that we consumed hours before. Nevertheless, we were able to stumble our way to MOS to carry on our dances in our tiny niche corner after vomitting out the essence*.

On the topic of Gambling, it's unhealthy. yes, indeed. But for the past few weeks, it has generated me some quite a hefty income since 1 year back when i was hindered from carrying on after my major defeat to the English Premier league. Gambling is addictive indeed. I can say that i win 70+ % of my bets, but the biggest reason that you lose is due to the unequal amounts that you invest into the pot. It is dangerous and highly effective for bookies and casinos to kill you off when you try to fight back your losses. People tend to double bet their losses, hoping to cover back their initial losses. When you win 1 dollars, you will go for 10 dollars. This is exceptionally true for me, but now i only do it with capital. And I have not made a mistake after these 3 weeks, with a decent whooping amounting to 4 digits. That's not the point. I bet for the thrill. Gambling can never be a job, that's why no one can quit a main job and gamble. I don't even believe it for Poker professionals.

Let's go straight to the point for the reason i blog about this. If you're helping someone, the person shouldnt' be going against you right? If you're betting on something, you cannot be 100% sure that you'll win right? So someone comes along and tags in with your bet, asking you for a favour to chip in $10 in your singaporepools bet. I mean yeah it's fine. But what happens when, someone bets totally opposite you.. I bet on this team, you bet on the other.. and you mock me by telling me that you're team will surely win, because it's a pattern. Sure indeed, I lost last night... But the winner bought alot more of other bets, and the resultant was a average loss for him and a big victory for me. I only lost that particular game that he opposed me. I'm just kinda pissed. and i wonder, maybe i should give some sympathy to him and not collect those $ from him since i've got a huge winning pot. But the fury that someone going against you, when are helping them just boils your mind.

2007-11-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

Ho kee (= Courtersy of Ashley

Pork Chop Rice
xiao Long bao - Crab
Dan dan Mian
Ling with Dan Dan
Typo Error - 10% sercive charge....

Takashimaya great sale on branded stuff.
pasta Cafe
Pasta Cafe
Ben's leaving performance at breakout area lvl 8 - Biopolis
Dear having her pasta :)

November studies

2007-10-30T09:51:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow which is the last day of october, which also falls on the Halloween is my last day of tuition until further notice. My 5 kids will take a break before they embark on their next journey to their next level. I have a girl that isn't very responsive to questions and kinda lazy. I have a boy that is ultimately smart and can easily score 90s in non-language subjects. The best thing, he just practices assessments and have tuition, and listens to class. No self revision One girl that is independent and able to do self revision without anyone's prompting. The other 2, well not so favourable.

What's the morale of the story here?
In order to do well, practice hard and pay attention in class. Self- revision is not required if you're smart. On the contrary, you can do self-revision. Whichsoever, do not procrastinate and crap your work. WHY AM I WRITING THIS? Because i can preach but not carry on what i preach.

MCAT is closing in, I better spend the next month studying hard. no income from tuition next month but my pay has been revised by 13.75%. Woot~

2007-10-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

Fish n Co
Coffee Bean

Chipmunk

Kushinbo

Dazmond's birthday
Mum's birthday
Hip dinner@ Cine
Home

2007-09-30T18:54:00.000+08:00

At Breko from L to R: Ashley, Ruiling, Peiying
At Breko L: JianFeng, R: Auggy
Sentosa Trip with Lin on the luge Sky ride- 29 Sep[Sat]
Myself on the skyride
Sushi Tei Menu cover at Vivo

At the settler's
Monkey game- I lost the game with 8 monkeys in total.
7.50 for Fish and chips
Chicken cutlet and the sausage, soup
Vampire game

Buona Vista
Qimei's armless Bear
CPR & AED certified
2kg Bengawan solo mickey cake- Rachel's birthday

27 September[Thursday]

Rachel's birthday. It was a wholesome 2kg cake (=

28 September[Friday]

My colleagues and I went to the settlers in Holland Village for a 4 hr session of game. For approximately 16 dollars, we had 4 hrs of gaming, 1 drink, 1 set meal with soup and dessert. (=. Qimei and Wilson left early, and then we decided to head over to Breko for some beer. 2 for $10 (=. After which i met up with Ace, and with his fellow friends.. Mervyn, Sarah carin and the funny Justin and 2 other peepz that i can't remember what their names were. Chatted outside the Ice cream place at holland village till 2+ before Ace sent me home :).

29 Sep[saturday]

Started my day with a torturous tuition before heading down to Sentosa@ Silosa Beach. I had some frisbee gaming and volleyball gaming with Carin, Mervyn, Justin and Ace and met up with weiling and tourmaline and my dear. Had our dinner at the porshed Sushi tei to have my favourite black cavier sushi :). We watched planet Terror as well~ it was a weirdo movie.

New 2 winter white hamsters

2007-09-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

The cage
the 3 week old hamster
The student- Mischievious Harron
Moon cake from Bengawan solo.

Had been hanging out with Ace,CS, Huiling and my dear for the past 2 weeks. The week before we had dinner at ichiban sushi @ PS and caught a movie the Invasion. Then i sent Ace down to butterfactory. 2 days back, we went to swenson for dinner. Ace headed down to MOS for ATB. CS and Huilin played monopoly and card games over at my place. haha .. it was fun. we added some chivas for some added fun. Then it was back to my boring saturday and sunday tuition.

I've tried by far the mooncakes:

Lei garden's double yolk

Raffles plaza's white truffle

2 other china famous brands..

I'm a glutton.

Brazilian Food?

2007-09-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

Some salad + sasuage

Brazilian food from the Sixth Avenue was average.. but dinner each day cost a whopping $38++. It's a pain the ass if you're not a carnivore. But with the meat served on the kebah style.. It's not something to be missed.. But yet it's not something to be patronized more than once. There's a few variety of Meat - Beef, Chicken liver, Chicken heart, 1 type of fish that night and a free flow of salad bar..

here are some pictures that doesn't really stimulate much appetite. (=. I wasted $94 dollars that night.

2007-09-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

Do you see a Lion King in the middle?
This was peeled out of my sun-burnt skin.
Yum!
yum!
Beach Volleyball Last Saturday at Sentosa

While catching movie movie - Invasion last night at PS, we spotted a coffin
From Ichiban Sushi - Chicken katsu bento
Half Smoked maguro
Half smoked salmon with cheese
Cs wants some food...

2007-08-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

Charlene and Charmaine= my students
Dear's New phone

From xiao Long bao last friday- Boss's treat

Salmon Belly

Just Like Reals??>?
It's Cute not its cute
Well, so strait. LOL.. it's straight.. and what's up with the advertisement..

I found all these vending machines outside the 7-eleven of Ghim Moh.. LOL.

Market adjustment?

2007-08-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

Mentioning about National day. I forgot to give my dear credit for giving me such a wonderful 1 year anniversary. Although we had no celebration or anything, but it's a national day.. and i dont' really wanna spend time outside when it's so crowded. it's not like it's X-mas. She baked some cookies and made some longan jelly. I picked her up from her place and pissed her off.. haha.. oh well.~ some petty quarrels.. but we made up and watched NDP as well as enjoyed a DVD- the illusionist and some oyster omelette, egg pudding from chomp chomp @serangoon gardens. Love ya (=

I signed my contract for 1 year at the IMCB- Institute of Molecular and Cell Biology. Yeah yeah it's a renowned institute having world class facilities for a researcher.. but somehow rather, i 'm just quite unsatisfied with the pay. 1 month after the start of my work, i was slammed hard, when i've learnt that some girls came to my place earning more than me. Firstly, girls with equivalent qualifications should obtain 12% lesser pay than me. But the truth is that local graduate obtains 100 dollar more at the start than other country grads... And the shitty thing is that... i'm earning approximately 200-300 dollars lesser than what i should be getting. That makes me getting a payraise of 300-500 dollars next year.. But wait.. what about the 11 months of difference that i'm not getting? or well to be fair, from the start of GST implementation till my next revision on my pay is 8 months of tragedy.. You decide.. i'm on the losing end.. oh give me a break.. The world is not fair. blah blah.. but i'm from a half government sector. So it should be fair. Something will be done. Very soon...

The GST is not up by 2%. it's practically up by 10%. Idiots claim that it's 2%.. wahahhaha.. idiots.

I got this absurd e-mail which was famous in 2006 from my girlfriend, which i wanna highlight -

For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.

- IT"S ALL FALSE.

Firstly, i know that this is false before searching it on the internet to find out that someone actually busted this myth at this following website: http://www.snopes.com/medical/myths/coldwater.asp

If you recall your science that you've learn during Primary 4, you should know that 10 degrees water + your 37 degree Celsius water, will give you approximately 20 or so. The cold water has to pass down your gullet, stomach, then intestine.. in order for the food to digest.... It will not very soon turn fats and lead to cancer.. It's so dumb. dumb dumb dumb.. basically anyone think can turn into cancer.. cancer is caused by necrosis and apoptosis.. go read up more about p53 as well. (=

Cell phones cannot make a gas station explode. It's a myth. Explosions are caused by static charge. So next time when pumping gas, don't step out of the car and then step inside during the pump. Don't make phone calls also.. it's distracting..

Yum Yum~

2007-08-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

This plate cost $14 dollars.
Marutama Ra-men Menu. Opps..
Drawing by dar.
The cool boy- Ace
Tiger barrel

Drove to IKEA today 12th Aug to buy my chair. it's bought my dear dear :) thank you!
The manual
The chair that was built.
The Prime Rib.
The Ribeye

Lychee ice Cream - HipHop Jelly from Wall's. It's tasty and it doesn't melt.

[080807- Wednesday]

Met CS, Huilin and Huirong for dinner at Matumara@ Central mall after work. Was supposed to eat at Kushinbo, but it was fully booked. The noodles are alright with a slice of pork... which are priced at $12 before GST, with either green chilli or original flavour. The additional toppings cost a bomb for meaty stuff. For instance, the kakuni cost $7 for 3 slices, which are quite normal. The restaurant is greeted by japanese and the shop resembles an original ramen den. The kaedema(not sure about the correct spelling), cost $1 for additional refill for noodles as long as there are soup in it.

We went to a pub on cantonment street for a barrel of Tiger :) before i went home to doze off.

[090807 -thursday]

I drove to airport to sent off my parents for their vietnam holiday trip, before returning back home. Fetched my dear over to my place and had a simple dinner with a view of the NDP and the movie - illusionist borrowed from videoezy. We also bought fried oyster and some egg pudding from Chomp chomp. Yum yum!.

[100807 - friday]

I cancelled my tuition and took leave from work to schedule a movie of rush hour 3 and dinner at black angus house. haha.. it was delicious.. of course it costed a bit more as well. yum too~. the service was alright.

[110807 - sat]

I drove to Pasir Ris IKEA for shopping of my chair as well as a vase for dear's mum. We had some fried chicken wing, set chicken meal and some swedish meat balls.. before catching our movie - Bourne ultimatum at AMK Hub. Then now.. we are at home resting our minds.. and relaxing.

state of trance

2007-07-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

This is the standard of what the non-local waiter at New york New york can do.
Mochamisu Cheesecake from NYDC on Monday

Before
After

pretty Girl
Ma Ming's Thesis Celebration at IMCB
Chin Siong's friend's cookie that i ate. So cute.
Reading Some Journals.

Ants Crawling (=

The state of trance is so so damn cool. Gives me serendipity... chills.. I love it when i'm just sitting down relaxing. Away from the hustles and bustles of my work. It's so cool.
It boils you, when someone states your name wrongly.

I proudly presents:

Lifestyle cum Posting

2007-07-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

I've been posted to 806SIR as PC of infantry pioneer platoon of 2PDF. Woot~.. So fast.. jez...

Anyways, my life has been hectic until i fell sick. Nevertheless, there's someone to take care of me.. (= It's my dear. I feel so much more energetic by just skipping my weekend tuition of last week.

Now that i'm saturated with work and schedules in this last week of July before the upcoming Ghost festival.. I can't even sign up for Army half marathon and i've been sitting on the couch and not running for the past 3 weeks. Jez.

My leisure time starts after 10pm when it goes all the way to 3am in the morning. During this time, i could play AOEIII, play counterstrike, study occasionally etc... And of course catch up on my daily news. I hardly put in anytime for my family.. Sucks.

Steamboat @ dear's house

2007-07-19T09:11:00.000+08:00

Woot..~ Haven't been really updating my blog, and i've realised that i've broke my cycle of running schedule. I've not ran for about 2 weeks. Hence, i shall run this Sunday Morning.. It sucks. Had been sleeping at approximately 2.30 everyday for the last 6 days.

I was invited to dear's house to have steamboat.. yum yum... thanks dear. :). I've got my new Samsung U600 phone. Ken's coming back!... blah blah.. I've settled almost everything. Got a new perfume from Dear from Clinique- Happy, and i got daniel a smaller one. I thought it really smells nice. Thx :).

Diamonds? toto?

2007-07-05T14:04:00.001+08:00

My office people are talking about the prize money of toto. Lack of knowledge, i went to singaporepools to find out and here's something to know about:

6 numbers :33% of prize pool
5 numbers plus the additional number: 13% of prize pool
5 numbers :13% of prize pool
4 numbers plus the additional number :13% of prize pool
4 numbers:$30 per winning combination
3 numbers plus the additional number:$20 per winning combination

My dad bought my mum a diamond ring last week.~ woot: 1.1carat.. but the thing is not about the size. It's about the clarity and cut, from Lee Hwa jewellery" Destinee's collection. OH well.. It has D, and VVS2. As for the prize.. it's not that cheap.

But what's so great about the diamond? argh.

can?

2007-07-04T21:13:00.001+08:00

Ken is coming back woot~ on the 21st of July PERIOD

Mutations from Fish

2007-06-28T22:19:00.001+08:00

I had the starving pasta.. Funny right!. The bill turned out to be a evil number.
My best buddy and his girlie
hee

Haha.. THis is a picture of a zebrafish that has 2 heads.. can you see that? 4 eyes sharing a common heart. Courtesy of my laboratory partner Kian Hong. It's really fun to analyze mutations of nature. woot*

Age of Empires III with Kahyee

2007-06-28T09:38:00.001+08:00

WOot~ Had been playing with this RisingDeath,dating back about 2 yrs ago. WE started again, but hope that i'll have more time to play. I'm sacrificing my sleep for my leisure.

Port Forwarding.

2007-06-27T11:06:00.000+08:00

Finally. I've managed to forward my port for my router, so that my download speed can be enhanced now (=. I have no more trouble joining AOEIII servers that i wanna play with woot~. Now Kahyee Can play with me le (=.

11th of July is the day for clubbing with Daniel and old friends.. I shall take leave on thursday.

Driving..

2007-06-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

Finally after so much persuasion.. i started to drive again.. only during the wee wee hours of the night. Just a short path... Been the third day I've driven my gf back home.. It's initially scary.. but starting to get used to it.. but well it's easy unless i'm parking.. When it was in the states.. the space was spacious.. hella easy. Other than my slow reaction and my tendency to skew towards to the left, i just need more practice in Singapore and i shall be fine. Let's just say that i've driven for about 1hr in Singapore. Not that bad afterall.
Went to Amk Hub on saturday with my dear after work.. nothing much but a shopping mall packed like a sardine. On saturday, I went to meet cs and huiling for dinner at sketches, shopped at bugis and boom... back home.. Sunday morning is tuition and yeah... It's time for pictures to explain what i wanna say.

Fish organized a double outing on saturday night, but due to unspontaneous response.. it was cancelled.. So is my secondary school chalet.. haha... All the plans are never going to work...

.... Pictures to be uploaded later.

Inconsiderate?

2007-06-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

I don't understand why... people at my work place can be so messy and untidy. It's a public property funded and governed wholly by the government, yet such things always occur.

Below are a list of disgusting things i face each day: Pathetically

1)You have a fucking colleague that shows you a stuck up face(luckily, it's just one)

2) People that steal your rack to place your eppendorf tubes(1.5ml) [THis is so fucking irritating] Even after you resort to writing your names on your own stuff, People still take your scissors, your stationaries and use it without asking and without returning it to you.

3) People that don't turn off the microscope after use

4) Messy laboratory bench, office table

5)Not cleaning up water spills, chemical spills and disposing petri dish, tubes in various sizes as well as pipette tips appropriately.

6) Not doing their laboratory duty

7) Going against the safety rules of the lab

8) Slacking away by using the office hours to browse websites...

More to go..... So what now? nerf them.

Fucking People or the fucking race? YOu decide for yourself.

2007-06-19T09:33:00.000+08:00

I was watching tv with my girlfriend last night, when she told me about this news which her colleagues told her. I outraged me and i decided to find out what it was all about today.
The following incident was published on the 14th June with the hapless girl being gang banged and the boyfriend watching it. Awwie...
I was always feeling safe when i have a 3cm knife with me if anything happens in Singapore. Well.. I feel extra safe when i have a glock pistol with me in the US. But in Malaysia, i'll only feel safe, if i have 5 bodyguards and parangs, if not with semi automatic guns.
Link: http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,133057,00.html
It's sad.. read the following news here:
SHE watched helplessly as four knife-wielding robbers took turns to ruthlessly beat up her boyfriend.

May pointing to the bruise on the back of her head where the robbers hit her. -- Pictures: NANYANG SIANG PAU, CHINA PRESS
Then one of them gave her this chilling choice: 'Let us have fun with you, or we will kill your boyfriend.'
The woman, 19, felt she had no choice but to comply. She was then gang-raped by three of the robbers, while her semi-conscious boyfriend, 22, lay metres away.
The horrific incident happened around 10pm on Monday night in Gelang Petah in Johor, near the Second Link.
The boyfriend, who wanted to be known just as Ah Li, said that he had driven to Pontian to pick up his waitress-girlfriend to return home to Johor Baru.
They were in Gelang Petah when a silver Toyota suddenly banged into their red Proton Iswara from behind.
Ah Li, a mechanic, said he saw four burly men in the other car, so he decided not to stop.
His girlfriend, May (not her real name), said: 'The car kept flashing its high beam at us. That's when we realised something was wrong, so we accelerated to get away.'
Ah Li called his older brother on his handphone to alert him that they were being pursued. He asked his brother to get help.
Then he made the fatal mistake of turning off the expressway in Nusajaya to shake off their pursuers - and ended up on a dead-end road.
Ah Li tried frantically to turn the car around, but it broke down.

When the robbers caught up with them, Ah Li tried to call his older brother for help again, but a robber snatched away his phone.
When he tried to escape, the robbers pulled out two knives, beat him up and slashed his right leg.
They bundled their victims into the Toyota, with May seated in front between the driver and a robber holding a knife at her abdomen. Ah Li was subdued by the two other robbers in the back.
When they reached a toll booth, the robbers pressed the knives into their victims and warned them not to say anything.
The toll booth attendant did not realise anything was amiss, despite there being three people squeezed in the front.
The robbers stopped the car at a deserted clearing in Taman Tampoi Indah, some 40km away from the robbery site, reported The New Straits Times.
Said May: 'They pushed my boyfriend out and kept beating him.
'Then one of them grabbed my arm and said, 'If you let us have some fun, I won't kill your boyfriend. After we are done, I'll let you both go free.'
'Under those circumstances, I had no choice but to say yes.'
She thought she would only have to endure one rape. But after the first man was done, two others raped her as well while the last robber kept watch over her semi-conscious boyfriend.

They then left the victims and sped off.
May stumbled to the main road and tried to get help.
Thankfully, five people on their way to supper saw the crying girl and stopped their car.
They called the police and ambulance - but were asked to call other police branches, as the robbery and rapes had taken place in different jurisdictions.
Said one of the good Samaritans: 'The boyfriend was lying on the grass bleeding... We waited for half an hour, and when no police came, three of my friends sent them to the hospital in the car, while two of us followed in a taxi.'
He said he felt sickened when they passed a toll booth just 500m from where they found the victims, and saw a police patrol car.
Equally frustrated was Ah Li's older brother.
The 27-year-old salesman was in tears as he recounted his brother's distress calls.
Recalling the second call, he said his brother had shouted: 'The car has stalled!'
He then heard a commotion, then May screaming: 'They have a knife!' before the phone was snatched away.
His parents went to a police station to make a report, but no action was taken.
The brother then drove to the Gelang Petah area himself to try to look for them.
He spotted a patrol car and flagged it down. He said he begged the three police officers inside to help search for the couple, but the officers were unmoved and later drove off.
A Johor police spokesman said the unfortunate situation had arisen because the robbery and rape took place in different jurisdictions.
He said that when the public call the police, they need time to ascertain the location and situation of the crime, and delays may result.
He said the matter would be investigated thoroughly.

Morale of the story:
1)Don't go to fucked up places, whereby you will experience fucked up people. It's not the nation, but that few fucked up people who tarnishes their image. Although it happens worldwide, but a few robbery cases, makes me wonder if Malays are fuckers. I just read about a piece of news whereby this bangladeshi was slashed and bludgeoned by a group of malaysian malay robbers for a meagre amount of money. I'm like? wtf..? they are construction workers...
Snatch thieves that occur in KL, when my friend's friend's N93 Nokia phone was being snatched by a motorist while he was taking a picture by the road.

2) Don't drive a proton, or a old proton, because in this piece of news, it broke down. why? Even a robber knows how to drive a toyota.. go for the better car.

3) Learn how to navigate and know your places well. Be calm. Why? Because they brought themselves into a dead end zone.

4) Don't live in JB, because i conclude that it's fucked up. I have not visited malaysia since 12 years old, until last year, when i was persuaded to go KL. I'm never going there again.